oh, youth
January 19th, 2021 @ 12:23 am
i just finished watching cobra kai, and as noted in my summarization:
i really loved it, but it was kind of hard to see these characters older now. i guess it just makes you aware of your own mortality. i grew up watching karate kid and just can’t believe how long ago that was – all of the flashbacks just gave me such a frog in my throat. i can’t believe those guys are in their late 50s. i hate how far away the 80s was, and i guess this was just a constant reminder of it. what i wouldn’t give to be an adult in those times… bleh.
not a lot of things make me have a frog in my throat or make me want to cry. for some reason, seeing people aging, IRL or celebrities really freaks me the fuck out and makes me feel like that. if you know me IRL, i haven’t changed much since i was a teenager on the style front, bedroom decor front, looks front… this is me. my shit was never a phase, this is just me. i’m okay with that, and i’m sort of getting better with aging or the idea of it. it’s not like i can do anything about it, so it is what it is. when i turned 30, i figured i’d have a nervous fucking breakdown, but i was fine (40 is this year, let’s see how that goes).