September 22nd, 2019 @ 4:20 pm

still got a cracked, black heart. 🙁

September 15th, 2019 @ 11:47 pm

as a young stu, this was one of my favorite 80s videos/songs. what a weird kid, lol.  i just thought they were like, cool spies or some shit.  i still love this song so much, and as an adult, the video is so visually appealing to me – the colors and contrast of their suits, the architecture of the building and the industrial setting.

around an hour ago, my boyfriend came to personally break the news to me that ric ocasek died, knowing i’d be upset.  i instantly started crying in disbelief.  they (finally) just got into the rock & roll hall of fame… it just can’t be real.

the cars have been in my life since i can remember consciousness.  my mother was a huge fan, and i absorbed it from toddler age.  they’ve always been the soundtrack to my life.  this just breaks my heart.  i can’t put into words how much this band has made me happy, influenced me artistically and aesthetically, and have been there to help me through breakups and hard times.  i listen to them on a daily basis, and i can’t remember a time that i didn’t listen to them on a daily basis, to be honest.

my sister’s cousins (via her dad, we have different fathers) used to babysit me and they’d constantly play the heartbeat video music videos VHS tape while babysitting.  i loved it so much.  i don’t know why panorama was on that video, bc it wasn’t on heartbeat city, but whatever.  enjoy the video, it’s one of my faves.

i cherish every member, and it was hard enough not having benjamin orr, but this one stings.  thank you for also producing other bands that i love as well, ric.  your talent and artistry will be missed so dearly.  i’m extra sad bc now i’ll really never get to see them live.

le sigh.

January 5th, 2019 @ 4:25 pm

i was born in the wrong era, fah realz.

May 7th, 2018 @ 12:46 pm

I’M NOT CRYING, YOU’RE CRYING!!!1

i have to be honest – i never really pay attention to the R&R HoF inductions, but of course i cared this year bc the cars were finally inducted!  i can’t believe it took so long for them to get there.

watching this induction was wonderfully overwhelming, as the cars are one of my faaaaaaaaaaavorite bands ever.  brandon flowers got to do it, and his love for the cars was pouring out of him while speaking… it was great.  i can’t believe it took him that long to get to know who they were.  brandon and i were born in the same year, just three months apart.  it’s kind of funny how that happened.  he discovered the cars while i was discovering all of the alt bands of the 90s, including weezer (funny enough someone in =w= played WITH the cars during the ceremony)…

i got lucky and i had young/rad people around me in the 80s the shoved all of that current music at the time in my face at a young age.  my mother was a huge cars fan, and my cousins mary and jimmy were teenagers at that time and used to let me watch the heartbeat city VHS tape with them.  i vividly remember being SO confused bc of ric walking on water during “magic” and i thought it was magic.  i remember thinking about how cool/naughty the video for “hello again” was, and i love that i was a warhol fan before i didn’t even know who warhol was.  panorama is probably not one of the cars most popular songs, but it’s one of my favorites, and the video was always one of my favorites.

i am so happy for them.  during their speeches, they thanked us fans.  it made me wonder if they even know how many “young” fans they know they actually have.  i read in an article a few years back that ric ocasek didn’t want to tour for many reasons, but one of them was that he thought a younger audience wouldn’t exist.  i got inspired to write him a hand-written letter soon after i read that, BEGGING him to tour for us one last time…  i have no idea if he ever got the letter, and i highly doubt it’ll ever happen.  if it ever did, it would definitely help fill my cold, black heart and make my measly little life a little more complete.  music is one of the only things that really makes me feel emotion in life, and it’s a big part of my social life.  when my favorite bands won’t tour anymore, life = over.

April 21st, 2018 @ 10:37 am

today is record store day!  i mean, there aren’t very many places to really buy records anymore around here… barnes & noble had records, but there are none in queens anymore.  there’s one comic booky store in roosevelt field that has them, but who knows if steve wants to get up and go out there today.  ANYWAYS, i got to thinking this morning.  i have that ridiculous crosley everyone and their mama has, and it B L O W S.  it sounds awful, and i need a better record player. i know i could just buy a technics and some speakers and call it a day, butttttttttt then i come across this gem:

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand i’m dying, bc of course i can’t find it online *ANYWHERE*.  it’s a vintage sears stereo from the 80’s and it was like, made for me.  #DYINGGGGGG

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April 4th, 2018 @ 2:37 pm

April 3rd, 2018 @ 4:22 pm

🙂 🙂 🙂

February 1st, 2015 @ 11:48 am

i had taken the day off last friday initially to move, but not all of my friends couldn’t help me that day.  since it didn’t pan out, i moved fully (furniture/everything large) on saturday instead, but i still took the day off to get things prepped to move in on friday night.  my mom took me back and forth twice with the weird odds/ends that didn’t fit into boxes or bags properly, which was super helpful.  at any rate, on friday, the only thing i really had to do besides clean and pack was go to the post office and head over to the new place for the cable installation.  once i got home from the cable installation, i was in the mood for some good cleaning/packing tunes, so of course “i wanna dance with somebody” popped into my head.

while i was watching the video, there was a series of thoughts that i had.

a) her hair is huge and awesome.
b) i seriously belonged in the 80’s as a teenager or adult (as per usual).
c) i wanted almost every dress she had on in the video.
d) i asked my male coworker to memorize and recreate all dance moves the males did in the video.
e) i was talking to my screen and telling whitney she shouldn’t be gone already. it’s such an awful thing that she is no longer with us.  she was so beautiful and talented, and it made me so sad that it gave me goosebumps.

i remember watching that video as a kid and just loving how much fun she looked like she was having.  all of the neon and colours going on is still so inspiring til this day.

that was friday…

i come into work today and i read that her daughter is now in a coma, pretty much on her death bed. 🙁

that is fucking awful.  i hope it wasn’t drug related, that would be so fucking sad… and who’s to blame?  unfortunately, let’s think back to the 90’s…  her substance abusing father had whitney doing all of that shit also.  she gave in and did it as well, but still.  it wasn’t a part of her life until he entered the picture.

her mother died because of drugs, and her daughter couldn’t handle her death.  either depression or drugs could probably be to blame.  that is such a horrible snowball effect because of that man.

maybe i’m wrong… but i doubt it, and that is so terrible.

January 2nd, 2015 @ 5:36 pm

i remember when this video first came out when i was a youngin, i was so confused as to why chevy was in this video.  i was raised on his movies, and i guess as a child i thought people could only do one thing at a time (ie: acting, music).

either way, one of my favorites, always. 🙂

October 6th, 2013 @ 5:50 pm

one of my favorite songs EVER ever ever ever is “never tear us apart” by INXS.  aside from the song being amazing, it reminds me of my mother.  i know that i’ve boasted about loving her musical taste that she raised me on as a child before, so i’ll spare you that repeat schpeel.  some songs just pull at my heart strings when it comes time to her/music, and that album is one of those thangs.

in addition to the adoration that i have for this album via mom, sometimes just fall into this INXS “Kick” kick, and i can’t shake it for weeks (yesterday it started up again).  that album is so amazing and i get so teary eyed thinking that michael hutchence is no longer with us.

the last time that i saw this video was on VH1 “pop-up video”, and it had to be at least a decade ago.  on my walk to and from dunkin just now, i was listening to this song and realized while i was walking, that the weather today is just like in that video.  foggy, rainy, chilly, and i was walking along side a cemetery that runs up the avenue by my apartment and it just reminded me of the video’s setting.  so i watched it…  you should also.

this video seriously makes me fight off sadness, it’s hard for me to watch it, he was so perfectly beautiful.  when he died, his coffin was carried out of the church with this song playing in the background, that makes me even sadder.</3

if i ever get married, i’m walking down the aisle to this song, and it will be my wedding song for sure.  i nearly died of jealousy and astonishment when they had it at blair’s wedding to that french price dude.  seriously, who stole my idea?!  they had an orchestra playing it, there was no lyrics, but they shortened the song by cutting out the sax solo, which was perfect.

. . .

after watching the video, i fell down a wikipedia/articles wormhole and found out a bunch of shit about michael hutchence.  i remember thinking about how when i was younger, people thought when he died, he died of some perverted asphyxiation thing.  while he did die by choking to death by his belt, the coroner said it wasn’t erotic at all, just a mixture of depression, booze and pills that led him to what happened that night.

tl;dr – he was super upset that he couldn’t have his daughter and his girlfriend’s kids for the holidays, and his choice of girlfriend was completely awful.

i never knew all of the problems that he was having in life up to that point.  the worst things were that he got injured to the point that he couldn’t smell or taste anymore, which severely depressed him and the last straw was that he got mixed up in a horrible mess of a relationship with a groupie/tv host named paula yates.  if the vast internet isn’t lying, inxs’s management tried to keep her far away from him… but she managed to have him eventually anyway.  heavy drugs and cheating, etc. – just a horrible mess.

such a shame.

October 24th, 2012 @ 11:45 am

i think both my mother and my aunt necie (who is like a grandmother to me) had one of these. god knows where it is now, i’m sure my mother either broke it or threw it away… but i can’t find one online ANYWHERE. (etsy, ebay… etc.)

anyone have one? you’d make my dreams come true and my little heart so happy<3

my neighbor rose has one, but refuses to part with it, lol. i may have to hijack it…

December 9th, 2011 @ 1:48 am

they’re remaking “american psycho”, and i’m suuuuper excited about it!

i saw the movie first and then read the book. as much as i love(d) the movie (and the dark humour), while i was reading the book, i was actually getting kind of pissed off that the movie parodied it as much as it did.

i can’t wait for this new adaptation.  the only thing i’m not looking forward to is that it isn’t based in the 80’s.

although the harron movie is gory and dark, i still don’t think it was as dark as the book because of how serious the majority of the tone was in the book.  i’m in no way saying it had no humour, but the movie embellished it a bit.  what i find so aggravating, is reading the reactions to this remake.  between reading comments online and then after i posted it on twitter, i got all this whiny nonsense back about it “being perfect the way that it is” and “it’s so good, why are they fucking it up” and “christian bale _________…” yadda yadda…

it’s been like 7 years since i read the book, but i pretty much remember christian bale wasn’t like pat bateman in the book… however, i believe that he was a fantastic pat bateman. i don’t know who could play a “better” one, but because this is the only version of the movie we have to compare it to, we’ll never have a good/clear opinion.

i’ve read comments about people bitching about how it’s going to be an insult between the cast and the adaption – and it’s pissing me off. why can’t people realize that IT’S JUST DIFFERENT?

i think people are missing the point and/or just don’t know that THE MOVIE ISN’T AN ACCURATE DEPICTION OF THE BOOK… i’d love to know the percentage of people that actually read the book vs. didn’t that are leaving these comments.

the way that i’m thinking is, we’ve gotta just pretend that we never even saw that movie so that we give it a fair chance.

either way, i could give a shitfuck what anyone thinks, i’m excited, and i figured i’d share this information with whoever reads this website. #w00t