September 2nd, 2021 @ 12:01 am
[via WebMD] Summertime SAD. You’ve probably heard about seasonal affective disorder, or SAD, which affects about 4% to 6% of the U.S. population. SAD typically causes depression as the days get shorter and colder. But about 10% of people with SAD get it in the reverse — the onset of summer triggers their depression symptoms. Cook notes that some studies have shown that in countries near the equator – such as India – summer SAD is more common than winter SAD. Why do seasonal changes cause depression? Experts aren’t sure, but the longer days, and increasing heat and humidity may play a role. Specific symptoms of summer depression often include loss of appetite, trouble sleeping, weight loss, and anxiety.
OF COURSE I AM IN THE 10% OF PEOPLE. if you ask me an popular opinion question, i’m usually the 1%, so of course my body would have a 10% opposite reaction to what the rest of the world feels when it comes time to freakin seasonal depression, lol.
i hate this shit.
i hate day time, natural light and sunlight (unless it’s browning my skin).
i hate oppressive humidity and heat.
i want more night time than day time.
i want autumn and winter, stat.
i want to have my new, old northface on (i replaced my old, deadstock one – SCORE!).
i want to wear my hockey hats.
i want to wear BOOTS.
i want to see the leaves changing and snow falling.
i want snow so deep that no one can drive and i can walk on quiet, busy streets w/o being bothered at 2AM.
[via WebMD] Diagnosis
The main feature of SAD is that your mood and behavior shift along with the calendar. It’s not a separate mood disorder but a type of major depression or bipolar disorder, sometimes called manic depression.
anyways, i’m starting to get SUPER antsy bc it’s still humid, it won’t stop raining and it’s so hot every day. i want summer to be over. i want to ride my bike and go for walks without feeling like i’m panting after a block. i want to wear my hair down… i would like to cut in my bangs. i want to wear hoodies and pants!
i have actually been sleeping like shit lately, but i didn’t think it was potentially bc of seasonal depression. my bed is against one wall and it’s driving me nuts, but my room is too thin to really turn it the other way. if i do, then i have to do this ridiculous shuffle every time i want to get to the other side of the long room. i don’t know what’s more important, good sleep or not sideways shuffling. i flipped the mattress, but it didn’t do a damn thing. i started sleeping with my head at where my feet should be, and that helped?
i have too much shit on my mind. i need a big fat change and something BIG to look forward to.
…well, in 59 days, i will be in seattle. that’s a start.