a visitor from the past
March 18th, 2022 @ 2:02 pm
i love alina bock so much. i was just going through my “BEST” folder on IG saved stuff and this popped up.
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March 18th, 2022 @ 2:02 pm
i love alina bock so much. i was just going through my “BEST” folder on IG saved stuff and this popped up.
October 8th, 2020 @ 5:27 pm
lol, maybe.
…but i honestly hope not. at first i was like “yep” when i saw this picture, but then i also felt like it had a negative vibe to it. i’d rather take that negative energy and put it elsewhere.
people that actually know me realize i’m usually not the villain. i’m not perfect, but i have perfectly reasonable reasons for cutting people from the team or feeling the way that i feel.
you can pretend i’m the bad person all you want, but i can admit when i’m actually at fault. maybe i don’t fight for friendships – i’m guilty of that, but it’s usually just that i gave up because it took someone too long to realize that they were acting like a piece of shit or maybe it took me too long to realize that someone was acting like a piece of shit, and my patience finally ran out. if that makes me a bad friend, oh well.
i look at friendships just like i do relationships… if you have to work hard at it, i don’t really find it worthwhile.
i’d rather you take that guilt bullshit energy and use it to muster up an apology and admit that you were wrong, if you were. i’d respect someone more approaching me if there was actually a friendship there at another point. i don’t just magically ghost people for no reason.
PSA: don’t be an asshole.
September 24th, 2020 @ 10:51 am
80s costumes are so eyeroll inducing and cliché. why is it that anytime someone has to dress up like it’s the 80s, they automatically defer to aerobic gear? if i had to, i’d say people do:
1. aerobic exercise look
2. early madonna look
3. strange combo of aerobic exercise AND madonna look that never even existed IRL (madge did not wear leg warmers on the regs and if you argue this, you are not a true madge fan or most likely even know what the term “madge” means)
4. acceptable, pop culture costumes (movie characters, cartoons, etc)
5. obscure 80s shit
anyways… what irritated me so badly is because suddenly everyone who never cared about halloween/autumn finally caught up and people are posting old halloween pics for “inspo” (eyeroll), and my friend (who was a pretty, popular cheerleader) posted a pic of her and two other girls in all neon, tutus, side ponytails, a body suit, leggings and leg warmers with plastic jewelry.
like, i get it… those things existed in the 80s as a collective, but nobody walked around like that, at least not in the majority. this costume just “sums it up?”
that’s another thing…. when did all of these arseholes get so into halloween/fall vibes? i hate people on this new instagram and blame it for exploiting everything, lol. i’m not saying people DIDN’T love halloween/autumn before, but it was never a THING like it is now… but esp to normal people. people not into goth or metal or whatever alternative lifestyle…
when i was like 18/19 i started buying halloween decor and just using it for my bedroom as normal shit, bc you know, halloween 365… and now things fly off the shelves just so goons can DO IT FOR THE GRAM. like, fuck y’all. sometimes i have to wait an entire year for the next spooky season and hope stores restock specific fucking items for purchase.
i unfollowed a halloween tshirt account on IG the other day, bc the idiots that run it boasted in a post about driving around to targets to scoop up every XL jack-o-lantern bucket they could find. like, had a pic of them in the car with it filled up with them. what about everyone else that wants ONE you assholes? (lucky for me, i bought a black and white one and a trad orange back in 2015, the year they released)
bah humbug!
January 25th, 2020 @ 2:49 pm
i saw this the other day in the back kitchen at work:
as i was cleaning out my own coffee mug (cobra kai), it caught my eye and i got super irritated and borderline offended.
i realize that i am clearly more to the left and a progressive person, which automatically shoves me into a special category of people (being a PC person). i don’t have a problem with that, but i can see idiotic normal people thinking i’m being dramatic when i complain about this innocently, ignorant and insensitive mug. whenever people realize someone gives a dramatic amount of a shit about others, they’re instantly criticized for it… so please, fuck off if that is also your impression and if you don’t agree with me.
April 11th, 2019 @ 12:05 am
today’s inspiration: I MISS MY PRE-INTERNET BRAIN.
i often think about when i was a kid, and days/months/years felt like forever. i am currently 37, but i feel like i’ve been around for 100 years. i try to think back even to 15+ years ago, when i was working at a video store, and i felt like i had all the time in the world. i worked 40 hours per week, but i didn’t have a commute. even so, that’s still only tacking on about 2/3 hours per day now.
how was life so different then?
i used to work a full week, i went to night school to finish off two credits i fucked up on in high school and yet i managed to spent infinite amounts of time with my two best friends, my boyfriend at the time AND managed to code for hours on end at night.
HOW?!
OK first off, having ridiculous work hours definitely helped. not having a 9-5, M-F job definitely helps break up a monotonous life. i loved working weekends and having weekdays off. being an adult and not having flex hours really fucking sucks. but i digress. my original point: is the internet really making our attention spans and time feel that off? if so, why the fuck do we keep using it?
August 29th, 2018 @ 12:59 am
(this is gonna be ranty, sorry…)
i really LOATHE seeing those like, inspirational quote images on instagram. it’s so fucking annoying… the android numbskulls really fucked things up for us when instagram became available to them. what’s even worse? quotes along the lines of “the best revenge is success” type of petty ass images. you know the kind… “watch them squirm”, “bury them with a smile”, etc.
i am the complete opposite of worrying about petty/revenge shit, so i can’t relate to this type of bs. if you’re immature and dumb enough to think your success is going to piss someone off, you’re already being a shitty idiot. this leads me to assume that you live in a magical land where you think the universe is doing things. if you ARE a believer that the universe is doing things, you probably also believe in a little thing called “karma”. i’m pretty sure if you’ve considered karma a real thing, you shouldn’t be worrying about wishing others any bad vibes. not only is it bringing you bad energy, but it’s also a massive waste of energy.
if someone or something is bothering you, try to keep it on the back burner in your brain. don’t waste your time worrying about how they feel, how you hope they’re feeling bad shit, how you hope they’re jealous, etc. – in the long run, “nobody gives a fuck more about what you’re doing than you do”. they probably don’t care.
the more you work on being a greater human, the less you worry about what other people are doing/feeling. you only have one life to live, don’t waste it on petty nonsense.
February 20th, 2018 @ 11:56 am
:grumpy grinch post alert:
as i was just going through my IG timeline, it occurred to me that people aren’t using their brains.
what inspired this complaint…?
my friend just posted a happy birthday post to her father (who is alive), who isn’t on IG.
i’m sure you’re thinking i’m a douche for pointing it out, but i think it’s fucking weird!
let’s dissect this… someone is making a public declaration of saying happy birthday to someone that isn’t going to see it, other people who don’t know her father are going to see it and not give a shit (i’ll go the extra mile and say hey, her other family members may see it and show him, but still, wtf?) and she really just threw it up there without taking any of these aforementioned things into consideration.
it’s not just her, i see tons of people doing it all the time. like slideshows with 6 pictures and full paragraphs that you have to drop down a read more for… for people who are not even on instagram sometimes. i’ve even seen people write full paragraphs for their new babies, lol! like, did you print it out physically for the years to come? are they to dig through your social media account? i don’t get it.
i think what’s bothering me about this, is that it’s a very nowadays, no attention span way of conditioned thinking. it’s like instant gratification, social media behavior has just taken over as normal behavior and it’s ridiculous.
i picture general people opening IG to post just like “la la la, i’m doing something so nice!” and not realizing that it’s just a post on a timeline that no one will even remember tomorrow. that’s the point of instagram, i get it, but the whole birthday posts thing is just so weird to me. why would i care about anyone’s family member’s birthday if i don’t even know them? why would i care about someone’s BFF’s birthday if i don’t know them? i still think that the worst offenders are the posts where someone isn’t even on IG. i do not get it.
maybe i’m a shithead for finding it bothersome, but i find it’s just useless information my brain doesn’t need. whenever friends post those happy birthday pics or “slide shows” on IG or they publicly @ someone i don’t know on twitter, i’m just like “WTF WHYYYYY?!”. i know it’s not that big of a deal (which i can picture being a defensive response from someone who does this kind of caca), but it’s still annoying. i feel like a lot of people feel this way but no one will ever actually say it out loud.
i get that it’s just a nice gesture, and people do genuinely think that it is. they think it’s making someone feel special, but yo, you can just text them. communicating directly doesn’t have to be a thing of the past! you can make them feel special without the approval of others seeing it.
i feel like this post may sound hypocritical bc i have this public website and wtf is the point of me having it, but it’s also not a timeline shoving this information into your face… if you’re here, it’s of your own choice (and also kind of the point of a blog).
only YOU can stop clogging people’s timelines.
January 29th, 2018 @ 1:54 pm
has anyone found a worthwhile alternative to shitty facebooked instagram yet?
ello, meh.
VSCO, meh. also, i used to use this as a photo editor. when the fuck did it turn into a social media app? lol
flickr, STILL sucks.
fame monkey, this name is too weird. i dunno – have you tried it?
January 24th, 2018 @ 12:52 pm
instagram bombards me with makeup artists and mermaid hair (cringe) accounts all day, erryday. i sometimes get really inspired to follow one here and there, but i honestly get bored of them easily. there are only so many teal or piss-yellow haired selfies i can look at per day. i think the alternative hair just takes over as a personality, and i don’t even look at the makeup for inspiration anymore. in fact, any account that’s just focused on one thing usually gets an unfollow pretty quickly.
as with everything shoved in your face in 2017, i realized how dumb these posts/accounts are making people. because of social media, women are holding themselves to this ridiculous standard that people are really that perfect, easily and often. that’s bullshit, and as much as people may enjoy applying makeup or dying their hair (guilty), it catches up to them when they have dedicated accounts. there are plenty of articles online where these girls come clean about the pressures. it’s like a pride thing for people not to admit that it’s not easy or annoying.
i’d like to help people that don’t know this type of stuff.
let me break the reality down for you:
June 7th, 2012 @ 7:17 pm
okay, so this is a GENIUS idea. i’m droooooooooooooooooling over this.
it’s exactly what it looks like. a camera, instagram, polaroid instant-style printing.
they’re raising funds to try to kick start it’s production, donate here!
June 7th, 2012 @ 6:47 pm
so my NY rangers season is over… but the stanley cup finals, they’re still going (although last night should have really been the last night, damn kings didn’t sweep the filthy dirty jerz devs). these are some random thoughts/things that happened/pissed me off, etc.
January 26th, 2012 @ 9:47 pm
[my week in pictures]
i’m going to try to remember to do this weekly, as well as my nails (which apparently, i forgot to do already seeing as it’s thursday night vs. monday at any point). these are whatever rad/important things that i managed to remember to snap last week. (mainly from IG – sorry if you’ve seen them already…)
the doors – riders on the storm, appropriately came on during a rainy day.
January 19th, 2012 @ 1:56 am
i’m too lazy to post, i don’t have a facebook or a google+, and i sort of fell off of twitter. the only thing i ever really do anymore is instagram. LAZY BETCH…
whatever, i keep meeting rad people on it and it’s the only social media i really use anymore…
i have been super busy freelancing, trying to stay above water as well. need rent monies and me and kitty need to eat!
so work first > my own website later, i guess. although, i do find it important to work on this because it keeps my creative juices flowing… dur dur dur.
AKA NEW HEADER BECAUSE THE OTHER ONE WAS MAKING ME NAUSEOUS!
as far as work goes, i’m gonna take over 2012 projects now, i have a bunch of friends websites i need to start. now that i’m getting projects out of the way, i’ll post about them as they get launched.
the amazingly talented homie jae (aka the cutest mommy in the whole entire world) and i, are going to start a site for the jewelry that we’ve been making. other than that, i have to start working on my friends hair styling site, and i’ve got my friend kelly who is a tattoo artist coming up very shortly soon as well.
anyways, blah blah blah. i shall now end my apologetic “i never post, i’ll try to start again” post now.
xo
November 29th, 2011 @ 6:03 pm
my homegirl sheena reblogged a post earlier today on tumblr that reminded me to post about something that gets on my nerves… not to be directed at her of course, i love the sheebs, but i’ve read bullshit comments/ppls two cents about it so many times before she even hit the reblog button, but this is seriously annoying to read. this is some seriously negative bullshit.
i’m not gonna sit here pretending to be, or saying that i’m a professional photographer… i know that isn’t the case at all, so to make it clear, i’m not trying to defend myself in that respect. my point is, who are all of these whiny, elite people all over the interwebz that have decided that the bulk of instagram users even consider themselves “(professional/amateur/[insert actual, other “valid” type]) photographers”? i’d like one of them to provide 5-10 instagram user bios that even clearly state that they think they are…
September 29th, 2011 @ 10:26 pm
if you don’t use instagram, i suggest not reading this because it’s just a review of the new version… and my complaints that follow with it. (of course…)
so it’s been a week since the instagram upgrade, and i’ve just realized that my eyeballs were NOT deceiving me… they made seemingly drastic changes to existing filters, and three of my favorite ones are just totally removed no thanks to the four new (in my opinion, mediocre, that all look alike?) filters. also: that new live/auto-preview while you’re applying the filter… #worst! now personally, i can’t decide what damn filter i want to use because of the live change. i miss just clicking the filter and seeing it.
i also noticed that when uploading the images to my flickr account, the filter that’s been chosen is no longer provided as a tag. something super small, but i did appreciate that.
this sucks.
i also can’t revert back to the previous version because itunes auto-deletes the old version on app upgrades, and i totes emptied my recycling bin since then. i searched for the .ipa file and i couldn’t find it 🙁
so. pissed. off.
and this hurts my little heart.
in my own little dreamworld, they would do a public vote on their website to see how people really feel about this upgrade. (and go back and just apply some of the changes) 🙁 </3
if not, maybe some genius could make an app of the old instagram filters… that would be amazeballs.
dear instagram, if you ever read this…
you. broke. my. heart.
NOW FIX IT….. AND FIX THE APP, TOO.
further reads about the same feelings (that specifically sum it up better than i could…):
http://www.myglasseye.net/news/2011/09/instagram-2-0-review-insta-grumble/
http://www.wired.com/gadgetlab/2011/09/instagram-2-ruins-almost-everything/
http://ericaglasier.com/2011/09/20/instagram-2-0-review-wheres-my-tacky-drama/