lolok
May 29th, 2023 @ 4:50 pm
so my ex jeff moved back to da hood, and we started hangin out every now and again – not regularly, def not romantically at all… we just try to fit in hangs when we’re both not too tired or busy, i suppose. we both don’t have a bunch of friends that live in this area anymore, everyone keeps getting married, having kids or have either moved away or are too busy, so we make time to get together sometimes. when we hang, it’s not weird at all, which is a good thing. anyway, we were talking about past relationships with other people and of course it always makes me think of the stalker goon…
i was thinking to myself yesterday about how fatty fatty boom boom‘s worst fear was probably about them breaking up and then us getting back together… WELP! it’s been almost 8 years that we’ve been friends again and neither of us has ever flirted or even brought up hooking up or trying to date again, lol. what an absolutely stupid waste of her time and energy – and fucking with mine. what a damn goon.
even if i did have a TWINKLE of interest in the guy, which i do not, (i know this sounds so stupid) i don’t care how many times he’s washed it – i would never want to touch a dong that went into that human, or the one fucking girl i didn’t trust and loathed so much, back in the day. i knew when we were together she was trying – and of course, she got her way – which he finally admitted to doing yesterday when we were hanging out. like, for months when we had broken up. i hate that we got back together and i didn’t know that, or else i probably wouldn’t have gotten back with him back then.
it was two full decades ago, and i don’t actively CARE, but i just looked at him and felt such disappointment when he told me that. THE ONE THING i didn’t want him to do – the one person i didn’t want him to hook up with… and he did. the look on his face when he told me was just straight up disappointment in himself and he apologized. i was like “dude, it’s fine now”, but automatically said that i felt really bad for 20-something year old jessica. she didn’t deserve that shit. also, that girl knew exactly what she was doing. what a fucking asshole.
so yeah… just another traumatic thing i was right about, to pile up on the bullshit that has been handed to me on a regular basis in this shit life, lol. unreal.