August 27th, 2022 @ 4:23 pm
so last night, i finally watched a documentary that was recommended to me about kathleen hanna called “the punk singer”. i found it super interesting because i love lil “celeb” factoids, and this was filled with them. some stuff i knew, some i didn’t. i’m honestly not a bikini kill fan, but i did enjoy le tigre back in the myspace days, so i always feel kind of guilty calling myself a fan of hers. my curiosity was mainly bc i’ve had a crush on kathleen hanna for like, ever. this also makes me feel terrible because it’s almost like i’m objectifying her just bc i have a crush on her. maybe objectifying is the wrong word, but i feel like she’d probably hate it, by her standards. 🙁
anyways, when kathleen was going on about her project julie ruin, this quote hit me hard:
“it sounds like bedroom culture, it sounds like something a girl made in her bedroom. a girl’s bedroom can sometimes be this space of real creativity. the problem is these bedrooms are all cut off from each other.” – tl;dr: she wanted julie ruin to bring those girls together somehow and she wanted julie ruin to be a way.
i obviously don’t make music, but since i was a teenager and discovered how to do graphic design and coding, this has been me – in my room(s)… introverted at all late hours of the night, creating physical art, collaging onto my walls, teaching myself creative multimedia skills and creating graphic design pieces that are well, very me. i now share it with the world via 666URC and UNRULEDclub, but back in the day, i used to make contact tables for myspace. it was such a nice little creative outlet aside from my personal websites that were mainly personal/stu-centric.
for myspace, i also used to make these bio area graphics for my friends and i… here was one of mine, funny enough, showcasing le tigre lyrics! 😛 this was from likeeeeeeeeee 2006?
so yeah, i felt that quote so hard. right now, i struggle with not feeling my age and looking around my room – it’s definitely not looking my age… but this is where i am always the most creative. i dunno man, i still just really love horror/halloween and colourful stuff. i think this is just my steeze and will be at any age, lol.
i also really hate sharing my bedroom space with others bc every time i do, i have to minimize or not have everything displayed as i normally do, and that fucks with my creativity. my bf and i have separate bedrooms bc of this (or maybe i just haven’t found the right person to share the space with). as i’ve just entered my 40s, it’s hit me hard. i sometimes get self-conscious about seemingly not growing up, like there’s something wrong with me and that quote helped me accept it a bit better. i can’t imagine having my surroundings any other way… ♥