September 18th, 2011 @ 11:18 pm

so i have one hour of my twenties left…  i’m watching twin peaks and eating donuts by myself.

my boyfriend is in DC on business and my cat is sleeping.  all i have is twin peaks, and the hunt for laura palmer’s killer.

oh, and the donuts.

bye bye twenties…

i think it’s hard to let go of this decade because it’s so full of youth… moving forward there’s only room to grow for another decade and then you just go downhill. that shit scares me.

in the last decade, so much shit has happened to me. good and bad. but it’s shaped me more than i thought my teen years had/and or ever could.

good and horrible friends, raves and shows, meeting my father/brother/grandmother, working at west coast and cascarino’s where i met some of my best friends that i still keep til this day, my longest relationships (that i’ll always love, even if we don’t talk anymore…), my stupidest love mistakes, moving out, finding most of my favorite bands, the best upstate times, tattoos and piercings, finding my digital creative niche and career, working in dumbo, mets and ranger games, crazy bell blvd nights, become closer with my sister, shows shows shows, vacations without family, being responsible for myself, etc…

mainly it was just becoming an adult, now i just feel like i have to be one, no exceptions…

i also think that i have this expectation set for myself that i was supposed to be financially set, married, maybe with a kid by now and i’m not.

i’m definitely not ready for that (and i haven’t wanted that anyhow)…

in happy birthday news, my sister and best friend planned a great party for me at my favorite bar, and a shit ton of my friends rolled through and took up the entire front of the bar… it was so great to have everyone there… i felt kind of bad that i didn’t get a lot of one on one time with many people, but i still tried to make my rounds.

i had my friend laura there and i hadn’t seen her since my birthday party that i had when i was living in midwood.  she’s so amazing…  she wrote the sweetest thing on my birthday sign and it made me miss her a lot. we always just pick up where we left off and all we do is laugh, she’s great. she told me that i was amazing and that she thinks of me all the time even though we aren’t hanging out together… i’m glad that i fully appreciated every shift i had with that girl at cascarino’s (in both stores), it was our designated hangout time, lol.

mike finally got to meet different friends of mine, and he even met steve.  which i was getting a little freaked out about because steve is my ex and he never likes being around my current boyfriends 🙁  which is totally understandable but we’re still good friends, so i wanted him there.

mike got me tickets to see danzig (and doyle PERFORMING MISFITS SONGS) for my bday and opening day tickets for the rangers! (and another game against the isles) – but i am super super psyched about opening day. i know i’m gonna be crying so hard if they have anything for boogey

i had a great time around great people.<3 thanks guys

August 22nd, 2011 @ 2:32 am

i thought it’d be easier to just sum things up after a while, rather than write day to day… i guess i was wrong.

so what have i been doing for the last month?

1. on repeat (like, i-have-issues type of “on repeat”.)
2. catching up in the old hood<3
3. went to a movie in the park, (officially) met an awesome dude.
4. hanging out more and more with the awesome dude (here, in wburg.)
5. watching ally mcbeal like it’s nobody’s business!
6. spending more time with charlie<3
7. spending more time with christian (and charlie and rob<3)
8. spending time with lauren who finally came back from london
9. spending some time with teena! (and kurt!)

everyone/everything is doing a fine job of picking up the pieces lately.
things are feeling much better, although i don’t want to jinx myself.

i’m so glad that this summer is over because it was really fucking shitty until now. i just want autumn to be here.
hoodies & hockey, and that smell in the air…  #BEST

i’m going to utah again next week<333 i think i’m going to chop my hair off while i’m there.