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a bittersweet song
January 27th, 2022 @ 11:26 am
i saw this song live last night @ irving plaza, and i haven’t listened to or thought of it in like, almost twenty years. it’s like i almost suppressed it bc of association. it’s one of my favorite thursday songs. it gives me nostalgic frog in the throat…
this song reminds me of A TIME.
a person.
a dangerously hot boy with long hair, an infectious grin, delicious lips and (our) undeniable chemistry.
i don’t regret any of it, but i definitely would have done things differently. i wanted him to be more than just my *in between people* person. the curse of horrible timing, my allegiance to someone else, my jealousy for his infatuation with someone else, feeling inadequate and getting in my own way, unfortunate mutual “friends”, impatience, being in my 20s and being an idiot… the one time i actually COULD be with him, i chose the wrong person instead of him.
maybe if he’d just forced his way into that window, but you know, a summer tour for his band. oh well, we’ll never know.
when the people you love get lost in the shuffle
when you leave, you leave nothing but broken hearts
at the end of the day, the person i chose instead opened many doors to things i love today. i guess everything happens for a reason.