late nights with the n
April 18th, 2023 @ 9:13 am
i haven’t actively thought of or have played this song in soooooo long… but it popped up into my head tonight and brought me back to a time.
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being an early 20-something year old was really scary when i had no direction or support. i was SLACKING. i got a job at a video store and thought i could just do that and live (rent may have been cheap enough back then tho)… my paychecks wouldn’t even cover one of my bills now, lol. it was scary not having career skills, not knowing how to obtain or figuring out how to survive as an adult, yet in retrospect, it was still such a comfortable time. mom paid the rent, i didn’t have bills, there were no smartphones yet, almost no responsibility… life consisted of: working, home, no bills, going to shows, fucking my boyfriend, being ikea/target rats, hanging out with my bffs, going to raves, being creative on the computer… finding myself.
i wish i would have known everything would eventually work out. instead, i took solace in my old bedroom, with late night coding/designing until the sun came up (which would eventually pay off becoming my career path), but i digress. the reason i came to post this song tonight was bc it was stuck in my head, but i also wanted to just discuss the way i found it.
the n was nickelodeon programming on an overnight schedule for older kids. while i was home during those introverted, creative nights, i’d let the n rock while i was making stuff. it aired tween/teenager shows, aka it was how i was introduced to the world of degrassi TNG (amongst other shows). in between shows, they would showcase indie music and the stills “changes are no good” was one of those frequently featured songs. i instantly loved the line “i am a weekday on weekends” so much that i made it my myspace headline and never looked back (even into 2023, lol). i think it nailed my personality in 6 words, lol. i’m an annoying little idiot asshole that naturally ruins everything good. not much has changed…
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