July 10th, 2023 @ 11:36 am
i was having lunch upstate yesterday with sophie and our friend agnes. we agreed upon this adorable little historical area at a halfway point, since agnes lives even further upstate. while we were driving around looking for parking, i found the most adorable, historical looking area. it had those adorable little apartment houses like in georgetown, DC – cozy, romantic looking with the old street lamps, tons of trees, quiet little blocks – just super charming… right up my alley. i made a mental note to check on apartments when i got home. turns out they’re what apartments in NYC/queens SHOULD be priced at. so i was all :wags eyebrows:
i find this a considerable option because it’s right near a metro north train station, also near my family, it’s affordable, and the views and apartments are great. i really sat here thinking this would be a good decision to make, until i started thinking about the pros and cons.
my immediate thoughts were: too far from a usable airport, too far from live sports, a LONG/expensivvvvvve ass commute, i have ONE friend that lives up there and i don’t drive and shopping is all far away.
these are kind of deal breakers for me, BUT there are also a lot of pros. near my family, beautiful area, affordable rent, things to do in nature, bars/mom and pop spots are all walkable distance away…
i can get around the not driving thing, because if i was near my mom, we could do shopping trips together – she drives. the thought of not being a stone’s throw away from manhattan just freaks me out. i don’t know if i could ever not live within 45 mins of the city – BUT i’ve been debating the thought of moving out of nyc for the last year or so, so i would have to learn to live without that perk, if i move out of state.
i think moving out of state and dealing with that issue seems more realistically acceptable, because i’d probably be moving to another major city (especially good for the live sports issue), but staying in NY and not living near the city and places i utilize just makes me feel so uneasy.
when i was cat sitting in jersey city in april and for most of may, i started digging that area a lot bc of how close it was to manhattan and how cute it was (especially w so many private rooftop decks – a MAJOR plus for my mental health), but i couldn’t commit to that either (i mean it’s nj, ew – half kidding). it’s also getting expensive there, but i dunno, it seems like an unnecessary hike to move over there, when i could just stay in the familiar. a plus is that i have friends that live over there, though.
every now and again i think of how these things hold me back, and it makes me feel so entitled. it’s like when i see people on HGTV shows with their stupid fucking complaints about things when viewing houses… “[wahhhh] it’s not an open floor layout and the laundry isn’t on the second floor”. families grew up in smaller houses back in the 50s-90s w laundry in the basement just fine. these people should be thankful they can even afford to be considering buying a home. we should all be thankful we can put roofs over our heads and choose where to be living in this shite economy.
i feel a bit entitled bc i won’t move to a place that would help me prosper just because of my social life and live sports? like, fine, the airport thing i could get around because i could stay with someone in queens the day before… and i don’t travel as often as i used to (i won’t be on steven’s free flying pass anymore). am i being an entitled bonehead? i don’t know wtf to do with myself, lol.