September 12th, 2018 @ 10:56 am

it’s really hard for me to say i have a favorite *anything* in music. i go by subcategories for everything. however, i will say, if i had to choose top 5 favorite genres… this would be top 3. i have such a love for these what i like to call “adult contemporary” (VH1’y) songs, lol. they hit me right in the feels. they remind me of being upstate with my cousin and screaming along in her room or the car. they remind me of nights i finally had my own room at the age of 14 in 1995, and i’d let Z100 or MTV play in the background while i wrote in my dumb diary or played SNES for hours.

whenever it’s gloomy, rainy, foggy or autumnesque out, i feel like it’s the perfect time for these types of songs. i equate this weather to comfort. anyways, if you don’t already know/listen to these songs, maybe you’ll enjoy ’em 🙂

UGH i miss the 90s so fucking much.

August 24th, 2018 @ 10:50 am

I FINALLY SAW SPARTAAAAAAAAAAA!!!1

i’m so glad i finally got to cross them off of my bucket list.  if you don’t know who they are (as i did not), apparently these dudes (or some of these dudes over time) were in a band called “at the drive-in”.  i didn’t really research too much bc i don’t care, honestly.  as soon as i saw that the lead singer was the dude from the mars volta, i was all “YUP that explains why i never bothered”.  i haaaaaaaate that dude’s voice.  so where a door closes, a window opens – and i love hearing jim ward’s voice spilling out of it.  much bettah!

i don’t know how i never heard of them before, but i guess it’s bc i really don’t give a shit about music genres the same way i do punk…  i love a lot of post-hardcore, but i never really explore other PHxC bands just because i like some or even a lot of bands.

♥ ♥ ♥

picture it, salt lake city, 2011…  an attractive peasant girl is falling asleep while getting a time consuming tattoo done.  relaxing music was playing in the parlor…  she comes to find out after being woken up by her tattoo artist (lol), that the soothing, melodic music was a band called “sparta”, and an album titled “porcelain”.  she instantly fell in love and never looked back.

♥ ♥ ♥

unfortunately for me, i came across sparta during their own nap that they fell into as easily as i did on that tattoo table.  they had taken a hiatus 3 years prior to that day, so i had to wait all of these years for them to wake up and play.  it was worth the wait…  i am so glad to see them in such a small venue (bowery ballroom).  they also played my favorite song, which made my cold, tiny heart swell.

actual footage of me at the show:

jim also asked all of us to, if possible, to donate to his friend running for senate.  i’m assuming you being here are probably like-minded to me (COUGHCOUGHFUCKTRUMP AND COUGHCOUGHFUCKREPBLICANS AND COUGHCOUGHFUCKCONSERVATIVES), so i figured it’d be a good idea to post it here.  we need more progressive minds running the show, so show your support if you can.

August 14th, 2018 @ 12:39 pm

this is such a summer album.  this came out the summer of my senior year of high school… takes me right back.

please note: (v important)
i have always skipped “adam’s song” and “all the small things”.
i hate them so much… i wish they would just go die in a corner.

July 28th, 2018 @ 2:04 am

July 18th, 2018 @ 2:33 pm

so out of nowhere (not that i’m complaining), a buzzfeed author wrote an article about gwen stefani yesterday.  tl;dr (it really is long): it mentions her relationships, but mostly focused on how successful she is, and about the fight gwen has with her image and how we perceive the act/character of gwen stefani.  honestly, i didn’t realize this act gwen even existed.  it made me even more angry than usual towards her, lol.  it’s just like, who even are you?

* * * * *

now, as a teenager of the 90s, i got THE gwen. the gwen that everyone looked up to, wanted to look like or wanted to bone.  for me, when i first saw/heard “just a girl”, i wasn’t like YEAH, OMG GIRL POWER!!!1 – i can’t relate to that feminist spark.  i totally agreed with all of it, but i mostly just simply heard something that was right up my alley bc i loved punk/alt rock (i didn’t know what ska or ska-punk was yet), but i also heard synth in it.  i also knew right away that her style – i wanted parts of it.  right away, NxD really just appealed to me and got the ball rolling for a lot of the genres of music i’d come to grow into.

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July 9th, 2018 @ 11:19 am

i love face to face so fucking much, and this song has been stuck in my head since saturday, as it played twice in kristen’s car on the way to the beach.

they’re playing on my birthday this year, but they’re doing an acoustic set.  i am so bummed about it. 😐  i just want a good pit to dance around in for my bday.  these vans can’t skank forever, i’m getting older, lol.

FACE TO FACE, COME BACK TO NYC!!!1

July 2nd, 2018 @ 6:12 pm

my bedroom in this apartment is so weird… it’s basically a long room and i don’t have big closets like my last two apartments, so there’s shit everywhere.  i just found the box with my posters in it and dug out the misfits “famous monsters” poster.  i want to hang it, but there’s basically nowhere to put it.  i have an “attic” type bedroom with angled walls to the ceiling, so that’s the only real estate i have left.  i mean i guess i could just do that…

anyways, i threw on both graves era albums straight after finding the poster, and now i’m all pissed bc i’ll probably never get to see a reunion with graves.  i saw him perform with them one halloween at “the world” in times square, but it wasn’t even a full set.  i want both damn albums played in front of me…  it’s not fair.  i watched and read a few interviews where it’s basically stated that it’s never going to happen, but we can all throw it out into the universe every now and again, i suppose.

ENJOY THIS GOODNESS (unless you’re a corny misfits snob):

June 19th, 2018 @ 10:19 am

this song makes my skin tingle ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥  (lol, wtf?)

May 10th, 2018 @ 12:50 pm

everyone keeps posting albums on instagram, uhhhhh i think their most influential albums or some shit (lol, clearly i’m paying attention on social media).  i’m guessing that means coming of age albums.  i don’t post shit like that on instagram, i actually still just post actual photos (unless it’s the occasional reminder post to follow my mobile wallpapers account so that you can see when i post new ones), so i figured i’d do something like that here.

instead of most influential, i’ll do the first 10 full albums that i can remember from childhood (which are honestly still in regular/heavy rotation even today)… thank you, mom ♥

she’d drive around day after day, week after week, month after month and year after year with these albums on repeat, and they’re part of me i’ll never be able to shake.  these songs are always in my weekly/monthly playlist that i shuffle through.

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May 7th, 2018 @ 2:24 pm

May 7th, 2018 @ 12:46 pm

I’M NOT CRYING, YOU’RE CRYING!!!1

i have to be honest – i never really pay attention to the R&R HoF inductions, but of course i cared this year bc the cars were finally inducted!  i can’t believe it took so long for them to get there.

watching this induction was wonderfully overwhelming, as the cars are one of my faaaaaaaaaaavorite bands ever.  brandon flowers got to do it, and his love for the cars was pouring out of him while speaking… it was great.  i can’t believe it took him that long to get to know who they were.  brandon and i were born in the same year, just three months apart.  it’s kind of funny how that happened.  he discovered the cars while i was discovering all of the alt bands of the 90s, including weezer (funny enough someone in =w= played WITH the cars during the ceremony)…

i got lucky and i had young/rad people around me in the 80s the shoved all of that current music at the time in my face at a young age.  my mother was a huge cars fan, and my cousins mary and jimmy were teenagers at that time and used to let me watch the heartbeat city VHS tape with them.  i vividly remember being SO confused bc of ric walking on water during “magic” and i thought it was magic.  i remember thinking about how cool/naughty the video for “hello again” was, and i love that i was a warhol fan before i didn’t even know who warhol was.  panorama is probably not one of the cars most popular songs, but it’s one of my favorites, and the video was always one of my favorites.

i am so happy for them.  during their speeches, they thanked us fans.  it made me wonder if they even know how many “young” fans they know they actually have.  i read in an article a few years back that ric ocasek didn’t want to tour for many reasons, but one of them was that he thought a younger audience wouldn’t exist.  i got inspired to write him a hand-written letter soon after i read that, BEGGING him to tour for us one last time…  i have no idea if he ever got the letter, and i highly doubt it’ll ever happen.  if it ever did, it would definitely help fill my cold, black heart and make my measly little life a little more complete.  music is one of the only things that really makes me feel emotion in life, and it’s a big part of my social life.  when my favorite bands won’t tour anymore, life = over.

April 14th, 2018 @ 12:53 pm

i must admit, this is probably my 2nd or 3rd favorite no doubt song EVER (definitely my 2nd favorite NxD album). i hate what the song is about, but the music<333 best.

April 11th, 2018 @ 5:47 pm

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April 3rd, 2018 @ 4:22 pm

🙂 🙂 🙂

January 29th, 2018 @ 10:57 pm

soooooooooooooooooo the misfits reunited last year or the year before for riot fest, and then played with alk3 in vegas to sold-out shows.  this is not shocking news to me at all…  they haven’t played together in over 30 years, so this news was bonkers!

when they announced those shows, i guess we misfits fans all kind of assumed they’d be touring aside from that festival/one-off vegas gig at some point.  well, live nation announced last week that they’d probably be touring the tri-state area with an illustration of new jersey with the crimson ghost’s face in it.

this week’s misfits announcement revealed that they’re ONLY playing new jersey, and it’s at prudential center.  pre-sale started today, and my coworker saw that the prices were $99+fees for mezzanine and $179+fees for lower level.

listen, i get the misfits reuniting is UH-MAZ-ING for us punkers.  for those people who never got to see them in any lineup, maybe i could see that being worth it, but that is not a very punk rock price tag.  that fucking blows.

fortunately for me, i’ve seen misfits in some sort of form a ton of times.  see, after the graves era, jerry only kept touring with the misfits.  for the M25 lineup, he was doing vocals while he had rotating all-star lineups including robo, dez, and marky ramone.  i got to see that tour soooooooooooooo many times in the early 2000’s, it was awesome.  they played like 3x a year, it was great.  they played misfits, black flag AND ramones sets.  they were awesome.  one halloween, i even got to see graves perform with them.

in 2011 or 2012, and i got to see danzig reunite with doyle for a halloween show at hammerstein ballroom.  not only did he play misfits, but he also performed a samhain set (SWOOOOOOON! – my fave).  i got lucky with seeing them live in many forms… so i’m not dishing out that much money.

*~*~*

for those of you who don’t know about the misfits dramarama, tl;dr:

danzig was dissatisfied with the misfits and left, forming samhain soon after.  he released some misfits music in a sneaky way, which pissed off jerry only, and he sued him for royalties (blah blah blah). for YEEEEEEARS this bullcocky went on but jerry only and doyle were allowed to perform/record as the misfits and had permission to use the crimson ghost as a logo… which is how i got to see them live so many times.  at some point, they were in some sort of legal drama which ended in a settlement and a reunion was born.

*~*~*

i honestly can’t believe they didn’t kill each other yet, and reading articles and their attitudes (pun intended) towards each other seem good, so hopefully they’ll tour smaller gigs aside from sports arenas.

anyways, $180+ to see the misfits in god awful new jersey (yeah, yeah, i know they’re from there :eyeroll:), no thank you.

“this doesn’t sound like a reunion tour, more like a retirement money tour.” – barry (co-worker)

October 19th, 2015 @ 12:35 pm

ayeeeeeeeeeeeeeee, exactly what i’ve been waiting for.  a good single to finally emerge from gwen’s heart/head.

i hate to be that cliché no doubt fan and compare, but this isn’t as powerful as “don’t speak”.  that’s what the NxD/gwen world was waiting for…

anyways, i don’t know why she chose the word “special” to describe this song, when clearly it’s about splitting with gavin.  of course, the tone of the song seems to be her complaining about him not meeting up to her expectations, like it’s all his fault.  that annoys me, because she chose to stay with this moron for as long as she did.  i’ve said it before, but she’s been complaining about him and writing about red flags since “return of saturn”.  why doesn’t she take any responsibility or blame for the situation?  i think it’s just a general thing that drives me crazy about some women, i don’t want to gwen-bash.  women seem to live in this la la land where love needs to be worked on SO HARD, and then when it doesn’t work out, they blame the guys.

i’m not saying that guys aren’t party of the problem in every bad relationship, but a lot of women put up with bullshit just to keep a dude because: love and soulmates.

FOH…  if you see those red flags, you tackle them or move on.  people rarely change.  life is too short to put up with shitheads and prolong pointless relationships.  i steered clear of many a jerk because i wouldn’t put up with any crap.  if you mistreat me, you better belieeeeeeeeeeve i’m gone.  i wasted years on people that weren’t right for me, that i had “faith” in… at the end of the day, it worked out for me in the long run.

everything happens for a reason, every breakup is a lesson.  sometimes people just aren’t meant to be.  hopefully you don’t drag it out to the the point of turning into enemies, and both make it out alive, mature, and on speaking terms.  there’s no need to point fingers like a baby…  there are two people in a relationship.  so personally, i just don’t understand how anyone can date someone for more than 2+ years, and just completely cut them out of their lives.  you were best friends for years, that makes no sense to me.  just work it out.

i now only have ONE ex that won’t talk to me.  it’s rough when you have that bad karma lingering for no reason…  it’s a good feeling when you come to good terms with exes and friends, whether you remain friends or not.  for me, it’s like little gray clouds that hang over my head.  no matter how big or small, they’re still there, and it sucks.

sometimes it takes a few months, sometimes it takes 10 years… but at least it happens. 🙂

September 29th, 2015 @ 4:51 pm

almost 20 years later, and still one of my favorites… ever. ♥

BB16

September 23rd, 2015 @ 12:42 pm

i’m the self-proclaimed birthday grinch… i could give two shits that it’s my birthday. i don’t really try to make plans unless it’s a milestone, i don’t want any cake, i don’t do that thirsty shit where i post about it online… i’d rather avoid it altogether. i hate getting older.

HOWEVER…

i will ALWAYS make plans to go to shows around my birthday, and this year was a doozy! the adicts came around again and played on thursday, and rancid played on friday.

the adicts played after bands i had no interest in seeing (psycho/rockabilly bullshit). they didn’t go on until 11PM – which didn’t agree with me and sceave’s old people bodies (lol). i was also fighting some sort of sinus/cold thing for 2 days, so i was so fucking tired by the time we were done with the show.

rancid on the other hand, i knew i’d need to be 100% for. every time we see them, it’s a mosh fit fucking workout…

i went to h2o/rancid with an old friend (pun intended), and danced my ass off so hard that i couldn’t function muscle wise for 4 days… i’m also covered in tons of small, random bruises.  i actually ended up also seeing the great houdini at the show, and ended up dancing with/alongside him most of the night.  i love bumping into people at these shows that i usually don’t get to see…  when rancid took the stage, i ran right into the crowd so we weren’t stuck on the outside.  i instantly found my friends john and joe right away…  i ended up singing right into john’s face before i even realized it was him.  we were both like wtf, lol?  there was un pit shift and they were both gone.  missy was also with me and she didn’t want to go in the circle.  she stayed on the rim and i’d come back and forth, but i really just wanted to be in that circle dancing.  it’s such a good workout.  rancid always has the best crowds.  almost no douches, fun pits, and everyone is also scream-singing their hearts out.  i dread the day that i’m too old for shows/pits.  🙁  i live for those nights/vibes.

i keep having to go to shows at terminal 5, and it’s such a pain in the balls to get to.  i really miss roseland 🙁  that’s where i’d seen rancid before that for years… now this is their new spot.  it accommodates the large crowd that they bring in, so i guess they’re sticking with it.

August 4th, 2015 @ 10:20 am

NOT THAT IT’S MY BUSINESS (other than them being in the public/celebrity eye), but aside from creating beautiful children, what a complete waste of time… seeeeeee! i told you so…  and i guess i was correct.

i keep reading online from other fans that they’re “shocked” and “true love doesn’t exist”, etc.  –  and i’m just like… really people?  have you not been listening to her music about him for the last 15 years? pull your heads out of your asses!  she has whined about that man since the year 2000.

anyways…

every night, i will now say a little prayer that tony kanal will be getting divorced soon as well (jk, but not really, but jk – he’s got kids now…), and they get back together.  that way, all will be right in the universe.

😛

PS: only amazing music will come from this. i am beyond ecstatic about that, even though i’m sad for her pain.

hopefully next time, she won’t make the same mistakes that she did with him.  less patience, more confidence.

February 1st, 2015 @ 11:48 am

i had taken the day off last friday initially to move, but not all of my friends couldn’t help me that day.  since it didn’t pan out, i moved fully (furniture/everything large) on saturday instead, but i still took the day off to get things prepped to move in on friday night.  my mom took me back and forth twice with the weird odds/ends that didn’t fit into boxes or bags properly, which was super helpful.  at any rate, on friday, the only thing i really had to do besides clean and pack was go to the post office and head over to the new place for the cable installation.  once i got home from the cable installation, i was in the mood for some good cleaning/packing tunes, so of course “i wanna dance with somebody” popped into my head.

while i was watching the video, there was a series of thoughts that i had.

a) her hair is huge and awesome.
b) i seriously belonged in the 80’s as a teenager or adult (as per usual).
c) i wanted almost every dress she had on in the video.
d) i asked my male coworker to memorize and recreate all dance moves the males did in the video.
e) i was talking to my screen and telling whitney she shouldn’t be gone already. it’s such an awful thing that she is no longer with us.  she was so beautiful and talented, and it made me so sad that it gave me goosebumps.

i remember watching that video as a kid and just loving how much fun she looked like she was having.  all of the neon and colours going on is still so inspiring til this day.

that was friday…

i come into work today and i read that her daughter is now in a coma, pretty much on her death bed. 🙁

that is fucking awful.  i hope it wasn’t drug related, that would be so fucking sad… and who’s to blame?  unfortunately, let’s think back to the 90’s…  her substance abusing father had whitney doing all of that shit also.  she gave in and did it as well, but still.  it wasn’t a part of her life until he entered the picture.

her mother died because of drugs, and her daughter couldn’t handle her death.  either depression or drugs could probably be to blame.  that is such a horrible snowball effect because of that man.

maybe i’m wrong… but i doubt it, and that is so terrible.

January 2nd, 2015 @ 5:36 pm

i remember when this video first came out when i was a youngin, i was so confused as to why chevy was in this video.  i was raised on his movies, and i guess as a child i thought people could only do one thing at a time (ie: acting, music).

either way, one of my favorites, always. 🙂

July 22nd, 2014 @ 11:20 am

the stones and the beatles outlived the ramones… how insane is that?
🙁

i wasn’t fortunate enough to be born in a year where i could have grown up to see the ramones play at their peak (sads.), but i was fortunate enough to at least see marky play (yes, i know he wasn’t an original, but whatever, he’s still a fucking ramone – and an amazing one at that). when the misfits disbanded for the 2nd time, jerry only brought on marky to tour with them, and they always had a ramones set – which was always rad and sounded great.

i have a billion memories of the ramones… first and foremost, and i always think of him when i’m listening to them – i’m forever grateful for my mother’s friend leo. i’ve posted about him in the past. the man taught me many things, one most importantly (i’m not even joking) – was to LISTEN TO THE RAMONES.

one day back in 1991, my mother had a wedding to go to. i have no idea why she didn’t bring her boyfriend at the time… i guess no one could babysit my sister and i, but she stuck us with him for the day. he probably didn’t know what to do with us, so he brought us to his friend leo’s house. which was mind blowing, a super-rad time, and definitely changed my life. yes, simply going to someone’s house on day, had changed my life…

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July 9th, 2014 @ 11:52 am

i have no idea how or why, but there are so many times where i’m listening to a song and i visually see the word/words i’m listening to on ads, signs or store awnings. i always take it as synchronicity, and that i’m in the right place at the right time in my life. i am a true believer in a set path, no matter how nonreligious i’ve been over the last few years, so i love when that happens.

this morning when i was on the M train going to work, i was underground, and the train stopped at 14th st/6th ave and my phone started ringing (i get service at that one stop for some odd reason). my ringtone is set to “nowhere fast” by head automatica, and the ringtone cuts off where daryl is singing just that. after the call i didn’t pick up hung up, cue in the song i was listening to, and it was the academy is… “skeptics and true believers”. when it came back on from the phone call’s interruption, it was at the lyric that says “nowhere fast, nowhere fast, nowhere fast… would you believe me if i said i didn’t need you…”. then i looked up, and a train ad read “get out of there, fast.”

O_____O

WHAT DOES IT ALL MEAN???!!!

June 10th, 2014 @ 5:43 pm

OKAY so i was complaining earlier, but then my day got a little brighter…  recently, i reconnected with one of my elementary school buddies via instagram.  we were closest of friends in like 5/6th grade…  funny enough, we both grew up to like punk rock (yet we’ve never run into each other at shows).  anyways, she let me know this morning/afternoon that vans was giving out free bouncing souls/gorilla biscuits (RSVP) tickets a la house of vans.  so WOO!  free bouncing souls tickets, YESPLZ.

i gathered a few of my friends, including one of my coworkers – and i am HYYYPED.  i got very spoiled for a few years when the souls were playing all the time, and i got used to seeing them (minimum) 4/5 times a year…  i haven’t been to a smaller souls show in almost two summers.  last summer they played with gaslight anthem on the piers, but it didn’t really feel like a souls show at all.  nobody was dancing/paying attention, i dunno.

when RSVP/smaller types of shows come to mind, i instantly think about the souls show at cha cha’s down in coney.

anyways, that show was amazingly important for two rad reasons:

a) i was promised by the lead singer (greg) that he’d ride the cyclone with me for the first time, prior to the show (via myspace, maybe?).
b) the. show. was. fucking. amazing.

however…

a) it was raining that day, so no one was riding any rides at all…  AND when i had bumped into greg after the show, he was all “ah man, sorry we didn’t get to ride the cyclone today” (!!!) the fact that he actually remembered was awesomesauce.  it goes to show that the souls give a shit about their fans.
b) the. show. was. too. fucking. amazing. – no souls show has ever lived up to the cha cha’s show.

cha cha’s was a damn shoebox (them small/intimate punk shows are the best ever).  it was late august on a rainy night – hot as balls.  they played songs i’ve never seen them play before (i wish i had a set list, DOH!)…  EVERYONE was singing and dancing.  the best vibes ever…  there was an age requirement, which weeded out the little shits that don’t know how to act at shows…  it was just perfecto.

below is a video of my exbf on stage singing…  ah man, it was so, so good.

as time goes by, i feel like shows get less and less epic.  i mean, of course they’re always fun…  it’s just that i’ve been doing this for almost 20 years, my youth is fading and the awe and fascination at shows is reasonably nil.  i’m turning into the cranky old show veteran that doesn’t like beer spilled on them by little idiots.  luckily for me, that rarely happens at souls shows…  that’s more at long island based BS.

i’ve never been to HOV, but i’m assuming it’s also outdoors (bleh), buttt i’m hoping since it “sold out” so quickly, it’ll be one of those obscure/weird souls shows.

January 23rd, 2014 @ 5:51 pm

i can’t wait to see the bouncing souls this year.  i neeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed to get life stress out of my body via being in that crowd, dancing and having a blast.

i haven’t seen them live since august of 2012. what in the fuckery?

OOPS!  i lied, i saw them at pier26 over the summer… but it didn’t really count. it was outside, i wasn’t in the pit and i wasn’t paying any attention BECAUSE i was outside.  honestly, it felt like they were half-assing it and not really playing for more than 20 mins.  it was really weird.

that’s my story, and i’m sticking to it.

October 6th, 2013 @ 5:50 pm

one of my favorite songs EVER ever ever ever is “never tear us apart” by INXS.  aside from the song being amazing, it reminds me of my mother.  i know that i’ve boasted about loving her musical taste that she raised me on as a child before, so i’ll spare you that repeat schpeel.  some songs just pull at my heart strings when it comes time to her/music, and that album is one of those thangs.

in addition to the adoration that i have for this album via mom, sometimes just fall into this INXS “Kick” kick, and i can’t shake it for weeks (yesterday it started up again).  that album is so amazing and i get so teary eyed thinking that michael hutchence is no longer with us.

the last time that i saw this video was on VH1 “pop-up video”, and it had to be at least a decade ago.  on my walk to and from dunkin just now, i was listening to this song and realized while i was walking, that the weather today is just like in that video.  foggy, rainy, chilly, and i was walking along side a cemetery that runs up the avenue by my apartment and it just reminded me of the video’s setting.  so i watched it…  you should also.

this video seriously makes me fight off sadness, it’s hard for me to watch it, he was so perfectly beautiful.  when he died, his coffin was carried out of the church with this song playing in the background, that makes me even sadder.</3

if i ever get married, i’m walking down the aisle to this song, and it will be my wedding song for sure.  i nearly died of jealousy and astonishment when they had it at blair’s wedding to that french price dude.  seriously, who stole my idea?!  they had an orchestra playing it, there was no lyrics, but they shortened the song by cutting out the sax solo, which was perfect.

. . .

after watching the video, i fell down a wikipedia/articles wormhole and found out a bunch of shit about michael hutchence.  i remember thinking about how when i was younger, people thought when he died, he died of some perverted asphyxiation thing.  while he did die by choking to death by his belt, the coroner said it wasn’t erotic at all, just a mixture of depression, booze and pills that led him to what happened that night.

tl;dr – he was super upset that he couldn’t have his daughter and his girlfriend’s kids for the holidays, and his choice of girlfriend was completely awful.

i never knew all of the problems that he was having in life up to that point.  the worst things were that he got injured to the point that he couldn’t smell or taste anymore, which severely depressed him and the last straw was that he got mixed up in a horrible mess of a relationship with a groupie/tv host named paula yates.  if the vast internet isn’t lying, inxs’s management tried to keep her far away from him… but she managed to have him eventually anyway.  heavy drugs and cheating, etc. – just a horrible mess.

such a shame.

September 25th, 2013 @ 8:35 pm

i have always had a love/hate relationship with gwen stefani.  most of the time, it’s just like WTF IS WRONG WITH HER, vs. hate.  i shouldn’t even say hate (okay okay, the hate is mostly trivial BS things vs. her…  hate meaning, eyeroll inducing things such as: the girl can’t dance — i wish she’d stop moving awkwardly, why are is she ever dressing like a chola?, stop being vain and having low self esteem, why are you still with gavin?, why are you not with tony?, what is with those stupid little buns all over your head?), hate is a strong word.

what right do i even have to judge or form an opinion?  she’s a celebrity, so i guess fans can’t really help it.  i think it’s more just as a fan since the 90’s, collecting all of these albums/songs as stories, and having this person that you make up in your head.  the person that i have molded for her is like…  she’s awesome, fun, cute, confident, stylish, talented, colourful, and all of that inspires me fully via great vibes.  then whilst listening to her songs, everything i adore about her just gets pushed aside because of her ridiculous seemingly self-destructive self-esteem issues?

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September 18th, 2013 @ 3:56 pm

(without the circle, that was just for the text path and OBV that’s not what the key is going to look like – it’s just a rough sketch.)

what this simple thing is complexly represented by (ready, steady…):

1. this will be donny miller tattoo #2 (one of my favorite artists ♥).
2. F5 (two parts):

a) it’s a computer keyboard button/key — hello, i’m a web developer! i hit that key like 987398379378 times a day to refresh webpages, so i’m hyped that i finally have something that can represent my hobby of the last 16 years, and my career.

b) whenever i have had something drastic/horrible happen in life, i have always felt that you can “hit the refresh button” and just move on so that it doesn’t consume you. it’s totally a shot at a fresh start. yes, i’m mainly referring to breakups…

anyways. my last BIG/long relationship horrible breakup that i had (no really, thanks for still not talking to me, and presumably hating me, asshole. ♥), left me feeling so fucking empty, useless and stressed out. blah blah blah feelings smash blah, i ended up listening to the bouncing souls album “anchors aweigh” a lot, and one song in particular helped me get my perspective into place.

good ol’ apartment 5F…

“destruction leaves an empty space… in emptiness again, i begin to create. feeling good again now, in some new kind of way… feeling good again now.”

totally “refresh”ing, and funny enough, F5 || 5F mirror each other.

and that is that. ♥

July 28th, 2012 @ 8:11 pm

…my week in pictures.

lauren and i decided to get together on thursday night for shopping and some after work drinks. we also decided to do this right before a huge storm brewing over NYC…  this was just moments before shit hit the fan and we ducked into the bowery electric for cover.

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