September 22nd, 2022 @ 5:24 pm

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September 18th, 2022 @ 12:02 pm

so riotfest is happening in chicago right now and bk vegan posted about misfits playing hatebreeders together for the first time in like, a billion years… and it sent me into some weird spiral on youtube that left me on this video about samhain.

listen, i love the misfits.  i have a misfits skull tattoo on my leg (i still need the samhain scarecrow behind it).  like, they are one of the first bands i really got into when i was a teenager, listening to punk on my own…  but samhain, samhain, samhain, you dark, sexy bitch.

i feel like this must be what parents feel like when they ask who their favorite kid is.  i know i shouldn’t even compare misfits and samhain, bc glenny boy is the only crossover musician that went along into the project, but it seems he was trying so hard to turn the misfits sound into samhain’s and the remaining boys were lazy.  the last misfits album – you can hear the music changing.  earth is hard and fast AF, not the campy misfits (which, i also love), but i digress.

i’m just here hoping google will pick this post up and throw it in someone’s face that talks to glenn, to let him know WE NEED REPRESSED VINYL AND/OR DIGITAL LISTENING OPTIONS, MANNNNNNNNNN.  vinyl on ebay, etc. – shit is going for like $50-300…  woof.

samhain > misfits for me, sometimes. ♥

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August 9th, 2022 @ 4:49 pm

ugh, this fucking EP ♥♥♥

August 1st, 2022 @ 10:47 pm

old paramore, new paramore, BLOC PARTY INFLUENCED PARAMORE?  colour me intrigued.

August 1st, 2022 @ 10:02 am

i woke up with anti-flag stuck in my head today… so today’s hubba hubba hottie theme is chris no. 2 (anti-flag’s bass player).

he’s deliciously checking off all boxes…  suuuuuuuper fuckin handsome, a progressive activist, talented, plays guitar, intelligent, likes and plays hockey (even if he is a pens fan, yuck!), his eyes, has a nose ring that he absolutely pulling off (droooooooooooool) and that salt and pepper undercut, dear lawwwwd.

also: please enjoy what was stuck in my head this morning (this is off of the souls/anti-flag split – one of my favorite albums everrrr – i even have a tattoo featuring a song from it):

July 30th, 2022 @ 7:30 pm

if you look up info about “the power of love” by huey lewis on wikipedia, you’ll see that he didn’t want to do that song for back to the future, bc he didn’t know how to write songs for film.  with that being said, hear me out on this conspiracy steven and i came up with about that song:

it’s about his penis.

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July 25th, 2022 @ 2:28 pm

chino moreno’s voice… i want it to get me pregnant.

a) don’t know wtf that means
b) i don’t want kids, so you know i mean business

with that in mind…

random thoughts w jess while listening to deftones: if one has sex with chino while listening to the cure, does one just implode bc of utter delicious sexiness? 🧐 like the universe is all “this is all too much”, lol

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now eargesting: koi no yokan

July 21st, 2022 @ 10:53 am

since playing the tony hawk pro skater games over the years, there have been so many good soundtracks.  usually they’re songs you already know…  sometimes there are not.  in one standout instance over the last twenty years, bodyjar is that instance for me.  i always loved this song and i only heard it on THPS3.  it’s one of my favorites (on prob my most fave THPS game) and i have no idea how i never got into more of their music.  especially seeing as that it was already 2001 when THPS3 came out and we had better access to information online vs. in the 90s…  i dunno, mang.

anyways, this week, i’m going through all of music between my computer mp3s and my old itunes library.  i’m going to try to get it all organized into my spotify, bc if i’m gonna pay for it – i should utilize it to the fullest.  i hate the UX of spotify and realized as i was adding music to playlists, if i moved them out of a playlist, where did the song go?  there’s no “ALL SONGS” by default, so i’m going and liking every song, so at least i have them that way.  i have to then reorganize the playlists i’ve built over the years.  i listen to some deep cut shit, so not everything is on spotify (which pisses me off), but i’m trying to get as close as possible, but i digress.

as i’m going through my mp3s first, i’m going alphabetically and looking at the albums of the artists and listening to see if there’s more songs that i like as i go.  i’m currently up to the B bands/musicians, and i just got to bodyjar, and i’m like “let’s check this out”.

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July 16th, 2022 @ 3:52 pm

somewhere there is some place, that one million eyes can’t see
and somewhere there is someone, who can see what i can see

June 29th, 2022 @ 4:27 pm

i got to see tears for fears live again on saturday.  ♥ glorious, glorious tears for fears. ♥

the happiness makes my heart want to burst.

they didn’t play this song for me AGAIN, which bums me out…  but the setlist was decent (it was also missing the working hour, but i did get to see that the first time i saw them live in LA).  i’d really like to see this before i, or they, perish from this world.  everybody wants to rule the world is my favorite tears for fears song (and my favorite song of all time), but this is directly behind it in terms of TFF.  it’s dark and emotional and hypnotic…  roland’s voice on this track, pure goosebumps.

also (speaking of goosebumps): LAUREN. EVANS.  tff’s backup singer was AMAZING.  like, goosebumps amazing.  since it was only garbage and TFF on this tour, they should have given her a slot to perform.  what a voice.  i’d love to go see her on her own, tbh.

June 18th, 2022 @ 9:15 pm

June 18th, 2022 @ 1:07 pm

♥ i’m sick of smiling
and so is my jaw
can’t you see my front is crumbling down?
i’m sick of being someone i’m not
please get me out of this spot
i’m sick of clapping
when i know i can do it better for myself
i’m sick of waiting
sick of all these words that will never matter ♥

June 10th, 2022 @ 1:28 pm

i just want something i can never have.

June 10th, 2022 @ 11:51 am

as far back as i can remember, my life included a musical soundtrack.  fortunately for me, i grew up in the 80s and my mom was still in her 20s, and was still pretty cool.  she listened to all of the best disco inspired or synthy 80s goodness, not just the top pop shit.  as i grew older and came into my own, i got into more obscure 80s stuff, and i got way into synth-pop.  i also went to raves and got into house music.  it all really blended together more and more with time going by (it’s crazy how much i didn’t know when i was younger bc we lacked the abundance of info we have on the internet, now).  a lot usually points back to giorgio moroder, and i love it.

the father of disco.  a true pioneer for all of the sounds that make my heart happy.  whether it’s his influence or his production, it usually falls back on him. ♥

this was stuck in my head this morning (video below), and is prob my favorite duran duran track.  i threw the album on (it’s one of my faves – and was released the same year i was born!) and looked up the wikipedia deets.  of course moroder was mentioned as an influence.  makes total sense…

the dancing in this video, i can not, lol.
the blouses!  i can not.
john taylor, i absolutely dear satan WOULD. : drools :

anyways, enjoy (if you’re into 80s/new wave)… and happy fuckin friday!

June 10th, 2022 @ 12:56 am

as i was just closing down the kitchen on the first floor of my duplex, i was just humming a tune while loading the dishwasher.  it took a second for me to realize what it was, but it was “battle hymn of the republic”.  no idea where it came from in the year 2022, but my brain definitely stored it because of junior high school chorus practice.

so what’s notable about this?  well, i sang that song with my junior high school chorus AT CARNEGIE HALL (in stern auditorium!).

yep, i sang at carnagie hall, lol.  i find that shit so weird.  it was also only because of the public school i was going to at the time.  they allowed us into some program back in 95.  for some, that is an absolute life and career goal.  here my corny 14 year old ass was shuffling up onto this prestigious stage, honestly just a half-good alto, singing with her choir and got to do it without the practice, practice, practice…

i feel like that is some random ass shit for a non-musician or singer to have on their resume.

i remember walking up on this stage for both practice and for the performance.  it felt insane and sort of indescribable to have that view in front of me.  it doesn’t look big, and i can’t remember how big that room actually is, but i felt small as shit the two times we were there on that stage.

i remember our chorus teacher mrs. bart kept telling us to sing from our bellies and towards that circle in the middle of the ceiling where the lights are… and i did.

i have to find the program from that performance…  i definitely still have it saved.  i remember we sang “battle hymn of the republic” and my favorite beethoven song – “hallelujah” (christ on the mount of olives).  i know that year we also did sister act songs, but i can’t remember if we did them there or not.

edit: i found the stagebill from an older post (and yes we DID do sister act)!

June 8th, 2022 @ 10:48 am

randomly stuck in my head this morn… (blasphemous, i know, but this my favorite version)

June 2nd, 2022 @ 1:16 am

iiiiiiiiiiiiiii aaaaaaaammmmmmmmmm soooooooooooooooooo happy that stranger things decided to use “running up that hill” by kate bush this season.  not only because it’s one of my favorite 80s songs EVARRRR, but bc it finally cancelled out and replaced the bohemian rhapsody of the clash (should i stay or should i go).  i also love that they’ve now introduced that song to a new generation of people/kids.

the stranger things scores and soundtracks are so fucking good.  like, goosebumps good.  it reminds me of the end of “san junipero” (black mirror).  the guy who wrote the episode specifically nailed down “heaven is a place on earth” for the ending of that episode.  he said he would have been “distraught” if he couldn’t have used it for the end scene.  i love how like that, stranger things tie such specific songs to things to evoke emotions with music (time after time at the dance…  BE STILL MY HEART), and don’t even get me started on san junipero.  i cried the ugliest happy tears the first time i watched it.

i won’t spoil stranger things 4, but the scene where running up that hill is featured, my lawd…  my heart.  like, that song always chokes me up to begin with (and “this woman’s work” – i can’t get through that song without a tear falling) – but attaching a specific character to “running up that hill” at a specific and very important scene…  WHO IS CUTTING ONIONS?!

anyways, if you haven’t already watched it, GO FREAKIN WATCH IT!!!

i can’t wait until the next two episodes are released – i want to watch the entire series in order, straight through.  i actually might just do it anyway, because the timing might just line up.

i want to relive the entire show like i’ve never seen it before.

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if you’ve never heard the song i’m referencing in this post, please ENJOY:

P.S.: i also added this ST4 phone/watch wallpaper yesterday!

May 12th, 2022 @ 5:54 pm

may have i all your eyes and ears to the front of the room if only… if only for one second?

VERY IMPORTANT NEWS!!!1

BISSSSSSHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH they had better play NYC or i am going to be so mad. the academy is… is on my damn near impossible to see list on my life goals page, man!

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(this post title and intro featuring lyrics from the video below ♥)

April 29th, 2022 @ 4:21 pm

April 14th, 2022 @ 4:53 pm

i haaaaaaaaaaaate when tom isn’t in blink, and granted A&A was during a hiatus and not that tom up and left blink for them… i’m glad that hiatus happened.  this song pulls me out of any state of not-happy within the first 4 notes that hit the speaker.  i love love love this song.  sometimes it slips from my playlists if i overdo it, and it resurrected itself for me today.  ♥ ♥ ♥

i-empire is such a good album.  i’m not a massive fan of all A&A, but that one is just such a gem.

March 24th, 2022 @ 6:21 pm

ahhhhhhhhh, jimmy eat world perfection.  ♥  i love when i fall off of this song for a while and come back to it and fall in love with it all over again.  this album is so deliciously, overwhelmingly, happily heartbreaking and tied to so many memories.  for some odd reason, all of my friends that also listen to this album say the same thing – that it’s a bittersweet one – tied to both good and bad memories.  i wonder why the universe did that.

bleed american reminds me of when my sister and i became close back in the day.  she had just started driving and this was one of our on-repeats.  it was also an album we used to listen to in christina’s car (my former friend/first roommate) when we first became friends (“i’m not andrina cause i take the right pills every day” – i will never not think of those lyrics when i hear the song bleed american.  our friend went to “naughty school” (which i always assumed was boarding school but might have been a psych hospital stay) and i guess was on psych meds? – really nice of her friend to come up with those lyrics).  we listened to this album often and lots of emo/80s/gothy/punk mix CDs on random road trips for hours.  this album, and both my sister and christina, also got me through the first breakup i had with jeff – i STILL can’t listen to cautioners</3.

anyways, if you’ve never heard it, and you’re into………. rock (lol?) give it a listen.  wikipedia has it down as “Alternative rock, pop punk, power pop, emo”.  i have a skewed vision of what emo is, as i really couldn’t stand the dashboard confessional type whiny/sad bands, and i automatically was turned off to the genre.  not all of the bands they normally list as emo bands make sense to me, either (sometimes they list weezer…?).  then they get all confused and fuse emo with pop punk – don’t even get me started.  at the end of the day, i’m more of a screamo person, anyway.

listen, bleed american came out in 00 or 01 and still sounded like 90s rock shit, so i dunno, i lump it in with all of that.  it’s alt rock that the emos listen to, that some of the bands sorta sound like sometimes.

my second favorite song off of BA:

March 23rd, 2022 @ 11:35 am

like, of course i loved this song as a teenager – it talked about piercing your tongue!  at the time, tattoos and piercings for us youths were out of reach for the most part and weren’t mainstream just yet.  this song is also catchy as hell, but i never went past the one hit wonder that it was.  it was just always on the radio or mtv, so i didn’t buy the album.  24 years later, i checked out the album it spawned from, and it’s so good.  i love me indie rock, and this is no exception.  indie/garage alt rock from the 90s?  even better.

the entire album sorta reminds me of listening to the blue album until the slower songs at the end.  i could have done with two less slower songs…  not that they’re bad, i just like the faster rock stuff.  also: hot damn, “wrecking ball” sounds like it was performed by cursive.

if you also love grungy 90s alt rock like me, check it out (if you haven’t already, since i’m VERY late to the party).

February 16th, 2022 @ 10:22 am

dear the 90s,

i miss you sm.

love, the stu.

January 27th, 2022 @ 11:26 am

i saw this song live last night @ irving plaza, and i haven’t listened to or thought of it in like, almost twenty years.  it’s like i almost suppressed it bc of association.  it’s one of my favorite thursday songs.  it gives me nostalgic frog in the throat…

this song reminds me of A TIME.
a person.
a dangerously hot boy with long hair, an infectious grin, delicious lips and (our) undeniable chemistry.

i don’t regret any of it, but i definitely would have done things differently.  i wanted him to be more than just my *in between people* person.  the curse of horrible timing, my allegiance to someone else, my jealousy for his infatuation with someone else, feeling inadequate and getting in my own way, unfortunate mutual “friends”, impatience, being in my 20s and being an idiot…  the one time i actually COULD be with him, i chose the wrong person instead of him.

maybe if he’d just forced his way into that window, but you know, a summer tour for his band.  oh well, we’ll never know.

when the people you love get lost in the shuffle
when you leave, you leave nothing but broken hearts

at the end of the day, the person i chose instead opened many doors to things i love today.  i guess everything happens for a reason.

January 25th, 2022 @ 2:08 pm

i want to live alone
because the greatest love
is always ruined by the bickering
the argument of living

i want to live alone

i could be happy on my own

♥ ♥ ♥

:opens up chipotle container expecting a delicious chicken quesadilla, opens it and finds horribly greasy/flakey quesadilla with some type of charred meat that was super spicy and NOT chicken:  “wtf is this?” – me

:uncovers “dipping” stuff (sour cream/salsa): “here’s the sour cream and stuff” – steve

“that’s not what i’m complaining about, wtf is this meat?” – me

“you’re the worst with food when it comes back wrong.  you’re just like joe, i feel like i’m dating joe.” – steve, with an extremely pissy attitude, right off the bat

“wtf, i’m just saying this food is wrong…” – me

“well you can’t order a replacement (via uber eats, they only refund not exchange the wrong food)” – steve :off in the distance still bitching angrily about how i am *the worst* when food arrives incorrectly:

“did i ask for a replacement?  i’m just asking, when have you ever seen me order or eat a steak quesadilla?  don’t you think there’s a reason for that?” – me, who just really doesn’t want to eat a steak quesadilla (ever)

“never.” – steve

“THAT’S BECAUSE I DON’T LIKE STEAK IN QUESADILLA FORM!” – me

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i hate bickering and fighting with people.  i will admit that i do have OCD about shit in my house (mainly my room and the kitchen), but everyone i know is warned about it.  i don’t just bitch at others for absolutely no reason…  especially stupid little things.

i legit can not believe i just got bitched at and full-on attitude for receiving my fucking lunch wrong.  i am sitting here like wtf just happened?  am i crazy?  i almost feel like texting someone to ask if i am totally in the wrong here.  i mean, sure i could have eaten whatever it was, but i didn’t want to.  i don’t like any other meat from chipotle.  why should i eat something i don’t enjoy?  i feel like if i had asked my friends, they’d just be biased and be like “oh you’re totally in the right”.

i understand this pandemic still has us feeling fatigued, isolated and annoyed, but why take it out on others (if that’s the case)?

it’s a good thing i ordered two meals for dinner yesterday, or i would have had nothing to eat for lunch today…  shit.

January 12th, 2022 @ 12:16 am

it’s been a hot minute since i’ve listened to moz or the smiths, this popped up into my bean today. ♥

January 8th, 2022 @ 12:54 am

Jesse Michaels says he “wouldn’t rule out” an Operation Ivy reunion https://t.co/DmrG6TMnQ6 pic.twitter.com/4nZX1Grhum

— BrooklynVegan (@brooklynvegan) January 7, 2022

i realize that he says it’s only a possibility, and probably a small one, but that reunion is on my freakin live shows bucket list!  i remember reading years ago about how jesse said he didn’t want to do it bc the crowd wouldn’t be like at smaller shows they used to play… and i totally get that.  i just feel like their cult audience would be HUGE. where/how would they play???

if you don’t know who op-ivy is, read away.

tl;dr: operation ivy was a fuckin RAD band from cali basically invented ska punk (hello, what i listen to 60% of the time), broke up after like two damn years and only ONE official record, but that record was amazing.  so amazing that they continue to have a cult followed legacy til this day!

two of the members went on to start a staple band in the punk community (rancid – fortunately for us, sometimes we get to see them play op-ivy songs), and the other two went off on their merry ways without a big spot in the “popular” punk limelight, but still had notable projects.  anyways, we little ska-punkers born in the early 80s have only DREAMED of seeing op-ivy live, because well, they broke up before we hit age 10.

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now, what i was saying before was that the lead singer said he would only want to perform to a smaller venue-type crowd.  well, i don’t see how that’d happen, seeing as that they’ve got so many damn fans at this point – even generations after they were in their hay day…  but i hope they can think of something, bc not everyone just wants to SEE op-ivy just to say they did.  some of us want to sweat, skank, pit, dance, sing and experience that shit to the fullest (ahem, me and a ton of my friends).

i bet you it would only be west coast, and they’d have to do secret shows.  maybe scavenger hunt the hints to them, and you know the god damn internet would ruin it for everyone…  it’s so annoying, you know you’d have idiots showing up for multiple shows too.  i remember when billie joe was doing his solo or other band shit a few years ago, he was trying to tell people online to not do that so everyone could experience it and STILL people didn’t listen…  PEOPLE SUCK.  the internet sucks, but i digress.

an op-ivy reunion somehow?  my heart would be so full.

December 16th, 2021 @ 1:06 am

WHICH VERSION IS BETTER?

OR

(go west automatically loses a few points for all of these shite LA kings cameos… lol)

December 15th, 2021 @ 2:05 pm

man, i miss the 90s.

December 10th, 2021 @ 2:28 pm

i really thought i invented self-care when i was a teenager.

one afternoon when i was like 16-18 years old, i was in my old bedroom and no one was home.  i decided i needed to relax and wanted to take a bath to chill out.  i thought i was a genius for figuring out the combination of putting on relaxing music, using my bath pearls, lighting my gap dream candle and soaking my dumb little life’s teenage cares away.

the internet didn’t tell you to do these things back then.  it really just dawned on me one day that the collection of these things all at once would really help me mentally.

i thought of this today because i am going to see genesis live tonight (a bucketlist band for me! ♥).  i remember my  playlist consisted of phil, genesis, gloria estefan among other sad, romantic artists.

anyways, i couldn’t help but peek at the setlist for this tour, and for some dumb ass reason, they decided not to include “in too deep” or “hold on my heart”, which breaks my heart.  those are top 5 genesis songs for me.

the only saving grace is that i paid less to see them at the new UBS arena vs. sky high prices at the garden.  while i would have loved to have seen my philly boo under my favorite ceiling, i just couldn’t get through the queue, and even if i did, i couldn’t justify the pricing.