March 27th, 2020 @ 2:30 pm
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March 27th, 2020 @ 2:30 pm
in case you need cheering up:
January 1st, 2020 @ 3:40 pm
when i think “roaring 20s”, all i think about is art deco… lots of black and gold, handcrafted, durable, romantic, timeless, gorgeous art deco.
now we have a bunch of wayfair/ikea bullshit, lol.
don’t get me wrong, i fucking love ikea… i have since i was a child, but don’t get it twisted. that shit isn’t built to last. i’m surprised i have pieces that lasted over a decade, tbh.
anyways, here we are… in the 2020s. society hath fallen apart, mindsets are shite, everything is just so… rapid. no sustainability on many fronts. how depressing.
i don’t believe in resolutions – never have. i want to just make a mental note to travel more, freelance more, buy some jonathan adler and elsa peretti pieces, get my shit together even more and make sure i have a good year, just like last year.
…gotta play it at least once today:
December 29th, 2019 @ 12:17 pm
if you knew me IRL last year, either i was a completely miserable schlep or didn’t seem it at the time, because you were a distracting, shining beam of love. not having a job for most of last year was AWFUL… it was so depressing. i didn’t just lose a job, i lost my routine/sanity and friends, but i digress. i am here to talk about this year…
i actually FINALLY had a decent year, woo!
December 28th, 2019 @ 10:06 pm
December 15th, 2019 @ 2:09 am
01/01/10 – i moved into my first apartment by myself. it was glorious.
i was still working down in dumbo at edit, i went to ranger games on the regs – sometimes multiple times per week, i was getting closer with my sister again, i hung out all the time with lauren, jen, jes and erica the most, i was being a miserable schlep bc of a guy, i went to shows all the time, i had hair down to my waist (it was when i really started dying it more), i was freelancing a lot, oscy was 5 years old, i twitpic’d more than i blogged, i flickr’d even more… i took my first instagram pic in november of 2010.
this new, exciting time gave me a lot of creativity, but towards the end of that year things became a bit stressful. as aforementioned in a recent post, i should try not to romanticize this era in my life that much. as much as i now appreciate my tiny, CHEAP apartment that i had on my own… it was just one room. my bed was in the same room as my kitchen. it was at a time i was truly lost emotionally, and eventually that year, i lost the job that i loved very much. i wasn’t dating anyone for quite a while, and i was very lonely in a place where i barely knew anyone.
i was so glad to NOT be living anywhere near what i considered to be home (northeast queens).
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12/14/19 – i currently live near where i grew up… aka home… aka where i never wanted to be again (by desire/suggestion of my current boyfriend).
i currently work in the hell hole that is midtown, near radio city (mind you, it’s fucking christmas time at the moment), luckily i’m at a company i really enjoy, they renovated madison square garden so now ranger tickets are too expensive to go on a regular basis – in fact, i MAYBE get to 3 games a year now, i see lauren here and there now (her work schedule/location of where she lives) – i purposely don’t speak to the three other gals that took up most of my life in the earlier part of the decade, i have been dating someone for multiple years now and we’re living together, i still go to shows – but fucking bands keep playing festivals and i could give a rats ass about going to a fucking festival, my hair is almost down to my waist again (heck yes, still dyed weird colours), i freelance sometimes but squarespace and wix are the cheaper alternative and i don’t argue it, oscy is going to be 15 this year (EW!), twitpic doesn’t exist anymore, i rarely blog and i definitely don’t do it on an open, personal level (thank you online stalker fatty), flickr has sucked asshole for a long time now, and IG – don’t even get me started.
my sister lives in LA and my mother moved upstate this year…
i feel family lonely.
my mother has stressed me out SO fucking badly throughout this decade, but most of all this year. it’s seriously shaving years off of my nerves.
October 13th, 2019 @ 10:37 am
time warner (i refuse to acknowledge that dumb new company name) decided to start advertising that they’ll soon be streaming “mad about you”. if you don’t know what it is, it’s a 90s comedy sitcom about a married couple living in NYC, dealing with day to day life situations. i loved the show when it was on back in the day, but whenever i hear the damn theme song now, i get all PTSD about it.
WHY YOU ASK?
tl;dr: my first boyfriend in high school (who i lost my v-card to) – i used to sleep over his house. i prob said i was sleeping somewhere else, but his parents were usually asleep early, so we’d hang out and fool around at night. that show would always be on for some reason, and we’d fall asleep together with it on in the background. apparently i wasn’t sexually adventurous or consistent enough, and he eventually left me for my “best friend” at the time. i have always associated that theme song with him and that small, horrible window of my life.
September 22nd, 2019 @ 4:20 pm
still got a cracked, black heart. 🙁
February 5th, 2019 @ 9:06 pm
so… i FINALLY got a new job! it only took an entire damn year, but it was definitely worth the wait. i gained $13k more than my last job in this new spot. i’m only on day two, but so far it’s been pretty good. i’m already working on a small part of one of the largest sites at my job, so i’m getting nerves out of the way.
i am unfortunately stuck using a mac, and my desk setup is a bit janky bc they gave me a GINORMOUS monitor that is basically a tv and now i’m relying on the laptop and i’m going blind. i am not used to that XL monitor life, and i don’t know how you mac people do it. it’s also on a swivel, not on the desk itself so it’s hard to move/position it. the keyboard shortcuts are awful and the mouse they gave me is so dumb. you can left and right click, but it’s all one button – it’s so awkward, but i digress.
day one didn’t start off so bad, in fact, it started straight up interesting.
i wanted to see how long the walk was from penn up to the 50s where my office is, and the train schedule would either left me at penn with 30 mins to spare or 60. i went with the full hour window, since it was my first day. i strolled up slowly and i ended up getting to my building about 30 mins early so that i could grab breakfast and a coffee and chill out. i didn’t want to be irritable NYC commuter jess on my first day.
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i ended up getting to my building with about 20 mins to spare, so i got my croissant and my espresso and sat down at one of the free tables. within about one minute, some lady sits down next to me and i look up, and there’s beto o’rourke. he was approached by two people, and started chatting and taking selfies with them. of course, like most people in 2019, i pull out my phone and take a picture of him. i look at the lady that sat down next to me, and i was mouthed “oh my gosh” and pointed at him, and she was like “oh, that’s my husband”.
there weren’t too many people in this starbucks, so he actually got to walk away from the two without being bombarded. as soon as he got to the table, i said hi and told him i was a huge fan of sparta. he lit up and started shooting the shit with me right away. i’m hoping it was refreshing for someone to approach him with something other than politics while he was on the move in the real world.
i honestly didn’t know who he really was before the lead singer (jim) was raving at him at the show kristen and i went to last year. i told him that jim talked him up and that i had donated to him. we shot the shit about where i lived, where he lived in NYC, what i do for work, we talked about my new job that features audio books, and how he had done an audio book about punk rock and that he covered the fugazi chapter. i also had mentioned that i share a birthday with jim, and once i told him that, he thought it was too rad. he asked his wife to take a picture of us to send to him, along with the story of the morning. it was a really funny run-in.
🙁 of course i didn’t even think to ask for a picture, since the situation seemed so damn normal… so he’s got a picture of us floating around in the cloud somewhere, and i was left with this nifty story.
it’s a cool “first day” story, so i shouldn’t really complain.
i asked him what he was doing in NYC, leisure or biz, and he said he was going on oprah. i looked online just now and apparently he’s not ruling out running for president in 2020. before i had left the table, i didn’t want to be *that girl*, so i didn’t mentioned presidency at all, specifically. i did however tell him that he’s doing great things, i admire what he stands for and sort of alluded that he should go for “it” (wink wink).
BETO FOR PREZ!
September 12th, 2018 @ 10:56 am
it’s really hard for me to say i have a favorite *anything* in music. i go by subcategories for everything. however, i will say, if i had to choose top 5 favorite genres… this would be top 3. i have such a love for these what i like to call “adult contemporary” (VH1’y) songs, lol. they hit me right in the feels. they remind me of being upstate with my cousin and screaming along in her room or the car. they remind me of nights i finally had my own room at the age of 14 in 1995, and i’d let Z100 or MTV play in the background while i wrote in my dumb diary or played SNES for hours.
whenever it’s gloomy, rainy, foggy or autumnesque out, i feel like it’s the perfect time for these types of songs. i equate this weather to comfort. anyways, if you don’t already know/listen to these songs, maybe you’ll enjoy ’em 🙂
UGH i miss the 90s so fucking much.
February 22nd, 2018 @ 10:27 am
sheebs posted a tweet/RT from two other people on IG today, about basic/UO shopping lemmings just now exploiting and “appreciating” asian snacks, while she was (/they were) made fun of years ago for enjoying on the regs. i immediately related, but in a different way (which i also immediately felt bad about).
i can’t relate to cultural appropriation on any level at all. my father wasn’t in my life until i was 21, and my single mom didn’t raise me instilling any cultural traditions or anything. i’m 4 ethnicities between two parents, and i was mostly (barely) raised w the german and irish upbringing. my mother and her very large side of the family also never concentrated on cultural traditions. they weren’t raised that way, either. i think we were raised more as christians than irish/germans (and none of that religious nonsense for me anymore, thank you).
when sheena posted the thing about the snacks, my brain defaulted to my subculture, which i find more of my soul fabric than my own actual cultures. i feel like people might find that offensive, but hear me out.
i got bullied for being into all of that stuff when i was younger, bc kids are fucking jerks. now it’s all the rage bc of bullshit urban outfitters and F21, and MERMAID/UNICORN HAIR, etc. – i get defensive and angry about that. i always feel like it’s not comparable to cultural appropriation, because i don’t have punk blood running through my veins… well, the blood that i do have, from the roots of the places my ancestors came from – i really could care less about it. that sounds really stupid and disrespectful, bc had i grown up with those types of traditions, maybe i’d feel differently. the truth is, those ties are broken. there are now 3 generations of us between those times. even if i went to the little town in ireland where my grandmother and her ancestors were raised, how am i connected to that? i’m already 36, it’s out of reach. i don’t mean to disrespect my family history, but clearly, my family didn’t care.
anyways, i default to punk, but i suppose alternative is a better description of my lifestyle and culture. i was raised loving metal and gothy stuff, i found grunge and punk in my coming of age years, and started going to raves in my late teen years into my 20’s. that music and those concerts has always been there for me, through bad and through good. i’ve made tons of friends over the years through this subculture, and it means more to me than being italian, german, irish or polish.
i guess the point of this post is just that i hope if anyone else finds it, hey, you’re not alone if you feel this way also. i don’t think it’s so wrong comparing it to cultural appropriation. maybe it’s bc i’m a misfit kid from a broken, single parent household. i dunno, but i have absorbed a lot of culture over the years, and i’m happy to have it all in my heart, brain and expressed through my creativity.
October 16th, 2015 @ 11:00 am
i’m a complicated bird… i’m all over the place in interests. i rarely post about sports, bc i feel like people are 50/50 on giving a shit about them. i am on cloud nine today, so i just wanted to post about how proud i am of these mets (and yet worried).
we won the NLDS against the dodgers last night. the last time the mets made it to the NLCS was in 2006, where we blew it against the cards. this devastated me so badly that i stopped watching baseball altogether for a few years. that’s why/how i started watching hockey again. year after year, the heartbreak was adding up, and getting way too hard to deal with…
September 29th, 2015 @ 4:51 pm
almost 20 years later, and still one of my favorites… ever. ♥
September 23rd, 2015 @ 12:42 pm
i’m the self-proclaimed birthday grinch… i could give two shits that it’s my birthday. i don’t really try to make plans unless it’s a milestone, i don’t want any cake, i don’t do that thirsty shit where i post about it online… i’d rather avoid it altogether. i hate getting older.
i will ALWAYS make plans to go to shows around my birthday, and this year was a doozy! the adicts came around again and played on thursday, and rancid played on friday.
the adicts played after bands i had no interest in seeing (psycho/rockabilly bullshit). they didn’t go on until 11PM – which didn’t agree with me and sceave’s old people bodies (lol). i was also fighting some sort of sinus/cold thing for 2 days, so i was so fucking tired by the time we were done with the show.
rancid on the other hand, i knew i’d need to be 100% for. every time we see them, it’s a mosh fit fucking workout…
i went to h2o/rancid with an old friend (pun intended), and danced my ass off so hard that i couldn’t function muscle wise for 4 days… i’m also covered in tons of small, random bruises. i actually ended up also seeing the great houdini at the show, and ended up dancing with/alongside him most of the night. i love bumping into people at these shows that i usually don’t get to see… when rancid took the stage, i ran right into the crowd so we weren’t stuck on the outside. i instantly found my friends john and joe right away… i ended up singing right into john’s face before i even realized it was him. we were both like wtf, lol? there was un pit shift and they were both gone. missy was also with me and she didn’t want to go in the circle. she stayed on the rim and i’d come back and forth, but i really just wanted to be in that circle dancing. it’s such a good workout. rancid always has the best crowds. almost no douches, fun pits, and everyone is also scream-singing their hearts out. i dread the day that i’m too old for shows/pits. 🙁 i live for those nights/vibes.
i keep having to go to shows at terminal 5, and it’s such a pain in the balls to get to. i really miss roseland 🙁 that’s where i’d seen rancid before that for years… now this is their new spot. it accommodates the large crowd that they bring in, so i guess they’re sticking with it.
September 23rd, 2015 @ 11:34 am
that shithole of a season, summer, is finally gone! in the excitement of it all, i treated myself (and my seester) to a new mikey/halloween scarf! i almost bought the sweater, but then reminded myself that i fucking hate regular sweaters… also: it was $85 – FUCKKK outta here. although $40 is kind of pricey for a scarf, it’s also something i’ll wear A LOT during the winter, and the quality/length is awesome (giggity)… most definitely worth it.
also upon us: HOCKEY SEASON.
i made steve hang these sweet little floating shelves for our small/random hockey shit. i figured it all being near the little sign that i made was pretty appropriate. it’s also the thin space between windows, so it filled it perfectly. our lil living room is getting cuter and cuter by the day (and cluttered – need more bookshelves!).
i’m dying to get the halloween stuff up in the apartment, but i want to wait until october 1st. it’s still hot out there, and doesn’t truly feel like fall just yet anyway.
🙂 this season makes me feel so refreshed and happy. new wonderful things have been aligning at the same time, which is wonderful *thank you, universe!*. >:) old friends keep popping up, creativity has been flowing, strolling around aimlessly for hours in cool autumn weather is upon us, hoodies, road trips, warm lattes, cold beer with warm pretzels, hockey, ahhhhh! i love love love it! i only wish that it lasted as long as our miserable NYC winters do… 🙁
halloween 1978 scarf: [buy it here]
July 1st, 2015 @ 4:12 pm
FFFUUUUU GOOGLE, I DID IT MYSELF!!!1
so two years ago, i posted about this seemingly lost WPIX indiana jones promo (please go read the post, so that i don’t have to write about it again, lol #lazyblogger). i was stumping google so hard, but i found a few people also inquiring about it… so i wrote to them about it as well. nothing ever turned up, so i emailed WPIX directly last november as a last resort.
it’s almost as if it didn’t exist… UNTIL TODAY.
i got an email in my inbox from one of their reps earlier that lead me straight to it!
sooooooooooo, if for some reason you too were looking for the WPIX “Raiders of the Lost Ark” movie promo… here ya go (a blurb from my email is even in there)!!!1
P.S. sorry i haven’t posted in like, 5 months… i post randomly @ jaejess.com, so check there if you’d like to read my thoughts, and i’m lacking here.
February 9th, 2015 @ 11:26 am
although i find the competition sort of driving/amusing and somewhat inspiring, there comes a point in time where it’s just… draining.
February 5th, 2015 @ 12:45 pm
as soon as i started making dreamcatcher earrings about a month back, i had to start packing up my apartment to move. now all of my supplies are packed and i can’t wait to get them all out and take over the lobe-filled world!!! spring and summer are coming, so i’ve been working with super colourful and fun hues.
here are the last few pairs that i had made…
i also always have new rings in the works… these bad boys are my new favorites (below).
February 3rd, 2015 @ 10:40 pm
welp… i’m officially out of glendale and situated in rego park.
this is one of the weirdest/hardest/most annoying moves i’ve had to go through. steve was/is out of town for work, so we had to improvise bodies.
how it was supposed to go:
kitsos and jimmy were supposed to help me move last friday, POSSIBLY mike – because he still had stuff at my apartment. i figured if he helped me out with moving, i could use the truck to get his stuff back to his mom’s house. we’d have to deal with snow.
how it actually went:
cable appointment on friday, instead. jimmy and metal joe helped me move last saturday (kitsos couldn’t switch days). mike never showed up/called back/texted back/tweeted/contacted me, so most of his stuff stayed back at our/my old apartment (which i feel HORRIBLE about, but it was there for a. full. fucking. year. yes, he let an entire year go by…). it was fucking freezing, but no snow.
if it wasn’t for jimmy pulling through, it would have been a lot worse. if it was just joe and i, we would have killed each other and probably taken like 3x longer. i don’t know what i would have done, i couldn’t really find anyone else to help out that day. i also only just started speaking to jimmy again within the last few months, so thank god he was being cool about me being bossy and persistent for the help. we had a falling out a few years back (oh, the soap opera that is my life).
we shall forever refer to this move as #junctioncake (this sign was left on the dashboard, still have no idea what it means). i should google it.
January 22nd, 2015 @ 2:20 pm
for my last apartment, i really wanted dark and cozy. i didn’t realize that living in the basement, and painting half of your walls black in a studio apartment, could make it a super cave-like dwelling! i swear!!! but on the real, the black paint made it seem more open, if that makes any sense. that being said, i wanted black in this new place as well. a trip to ikea earlier in 2014 left me DROOLING over this pastel pink bookcase i just knew i needed… so i’m glad it flows well with all happy hues.
i can’t wait until i’m in a space with all of these happy colours, in addition to the light olive/pea green bookcase and dressers that i’ve scored from ikea over the years. 🙂
December 31st, 2014 @ 4:24 pm
things that happened within the last two weeks…
1. 🙁 korn passed away (RIP)
2. office xmas party!
3. i still have a lot of blue hair?
4. the disney store has RAD mirrors that i want in my adult bedroom.
5. it turned from autumn into dreaded winter.
6. rafael ramos’s funeral took over my neighborhood (RIP)
7. my boyfriend bought gold dipped sneakers. sneakers are weird.
8 & 9. horror pics from ian skelton arrived (#8 for me and #9 for my seester for xmas)!
10. i made a beautiful new ring! you can buy it here.
11. ricardo and i found abandoned coquito in the fridge here at work, so we claimed it.
12. the post is a piece of shit.
13. i FINALLY prevailed and got that SSUR wonder wheel tee that i wanted at a wayyyy lower price than the original.
14. while packing up my apartment, i found this stagebill from when i sang at carnegie hall back in 1995.
June 10th, 2014 @ 5:43 pm
OKAY so i was complaining earlier, but then my day got a little brighter… recently, i reconnected with one of my elementary school buddies via instagram. we were closest of friends in like 5/6th grade… funny enough, we both grew up to like punk rock (yet we’ve never run into each other at shows). anyways, she let me know this morning/afternoon that vans was giving out free bouncing souls/gorilla biscuits (RSVP) tickets a la house of vans. so WOO! free bouncing souls tickets, YESPLZ.
i gathered a few of my friends, including one of my coworkers – and i am HYYYPED. i got very spoiled for a few years when the souls were playing all the time, and i got used to seeing them (minimum) 4/5 times a year… i haven’t been to a smaller souls show in almost two summers. last summer they played with gaslight anthem on the piers, but it didn’t really feel like a souls show at all. nobody was dancing/paying attention, i dunno.
when RSVP/smaller types of shows come to mind, i instantly think about the souls show at cha cha’s down in coney.
anyways, that show was amazingly important for two rad reasons:
a) i was promised by the lead singer (greg) that he’d ride the cyclone with me for the first time, prior to the show (via myspace, maybe?).
b) the. show. was. fucking. amazing.
a) it was raining that day, so no one was riding any rides at all… AND when i had bumped into greg after the show, he was all “ah man, sorry we didn’t get to ride the cyclone today” (!!!) the fact that he actually remembered was awesomesauce. it goes to show that the souls give a shit about their fans.
b) the. show. was. too. fucking. amazing. – no souls show has ever lived up to the cha cha’s show.
cha cha’s was a damn shoebox (them small/intimate punk shows are the best ever). it was late august on a rainy night – hot as balls. they played songs i’ve never seen them play before (i wish i had a set list, DOH!)… EVERYONE was singing and dancing. the best vibes ever… there was an age requirement, which weeded out the little shits that don’t know how to act at shows… it was just perfecto.
below is a video of my exbf on stage singing… ah man, it was so, so good.
as time goes by, i feel like shows get less and less epic. i mean, of course they’re always fun… it’s just that i’ve been doing this for almost 20 years, my youth is fading and the awe and fascination at shows is reasonably nil. i’m turning into the cranky old show veteran that doesn’t like beer spilled on them by little idiots. luckily for me, that rarely happens at souls shows… that’s more at long island based BS.
i’ve never been to HOV, but i’m assuming it’s also outdoors (bleh), buttt i’m hoping since it “sold out” so quickly, it’ll be one of those obscure/weird souls shows.
May 20th, 2014 @ 12:28 pm
^ look at the cool setup the rangers installed in herald square!!! 😀
i’m sooooooooo proud of these new york rangers! we’re 2 wins away from getting into the stanley cup finals. i can’t even begin to describe how exciting that is… we haven’t been there since the last time we won the cup.
i NEEEEEEEEED to see lundqvist raise that cup. i’ve been watching hockey again for the last 7/8 years, and every year i watch him work his magic all season for nothing. okay, well not for nothing – he breaks an insane amount of records and wins trophies and what not – BUT THE BIGGEST ONE… THE MOST IMPORTANT ONE – he deserves it, already.
the team this year – including hank, it wasn’t an easy start for them. it was shaky because we had just gotten rid of torts and inherited AV, the chemistry was off – there was a new system. i didn’t think we’d even make the playoffs at all, to be honest. the fact that we came back and dominated the penguins was insane.
okay, no one cares about sports around these parts but me… lol. just documenting my excitement for the blueshirts. WOOOOO!
October 6th, 2013 @ 6:21 pm
i often forget to post about #JAEJESS here, but here’s a good/cute update!
$5 seasonal rings! (or for you all-year-round goth folks ♥ — also: free shipping!)
September 7th, 2013 @ 10:33 pm
i’ve been making general hockey/new york ranger fan shirts — these are the brainstorms between myself and the help of my BFF lauren and my boyfriend mike. at first, i was trying to gear things towards more anti-puck bunny females that actually know what they’re talking about where hockey is concerned, but i thought to myself, why limit the “brand”? i think dudes should be wearing my shirts also!
anyhoo, i tend to stick to my own team, but am open to working on shirts for other teams. holler if you’re interested!
oh, and i apologize ahead of time for the prices on that website. i have a few printed though, they are pretty nice. i think they’re so expensive for the most part, because i have them set to sell on the athletic shirts. you can change the style/colour to drop the price a bit.
LET’S GO RANGERS!
24 days until hockey!
July 13th, 2013 @ 11:47 pm
i’m back in biz! i got hired by a great new company!<3
my salary is $5K higher than the last, and i even have vision/dental coverage…
i may even try to get the braces that i’ve always dreamed of.
March 14th, 2013 @ 12:31 pm
oh! hey world,
i forgot to tell you…
my boyfriend and i moved into a spacious two bedroom apartment two weeks ago!
how adult of me!
March 13th, 2012 @ 12:15 am
okay, my computer is up and running again. i thinkkkk (since i don’t often download things) that i got this nasty virus from trying to view illegally streaming hockey games online… stupid cable provider and MSG didn’t want to cooperate financially for a while, so they were blocking out my ranger games… since i don’t watch much TV anyway and it’s almost the end of the regular hockey season, i cancelled cable and was relying on the bad stuff to watch games.
served me right, i suppose :\
my boyfriend and i went to florida and back since last i posted 🙂
i made some earrings and did my nails a few times… as per usual… (i lead a super exciting life in the winter, ey?)
my website to sell my earrings is almost done, so i can begin selling them! i haven’t been posting them here at all, i’ve been posting them up on instagram… sorry!
here’s a sneak peak at a few of my favorites so far 🙂
all i’ve been doing is catching up on work since i got my computer back, so i’m off to do that a little more… bartering for a tattoo for a website (via my friend kelly who also did my misfits skull), and working on a wedding website for my cousin getting hitched later this year… so farewell for now. thanks for reading this, if anyone even bothers to, lol.