December 14th, 2021 @ 1:27 am

i just watched that “street gang: how we got to sesame street” movie and cried my eyeballs out.  partly for nostalgia, but all the people who died</3  it’s heartbreaking.

on a serious note – what a revolutionary show.  for kids, for adults, for learning, for laughs and so much sticks with you.  it’s crazy that even today, i can reference stuff from sesame street into my daily life, too.

i love that i’m 40 and i still absolutely melt whenever i see grover.  he’s so stinking cute and STILL hilarious bc it’s all written by adults.  the talent was amazing, what a time they started it, what an amazing cast and staff, etc.

anyways, while i was watching this movie, one of my idiotic thoughts was about a time i referenced sesame street IRL as an adult.

picture it: maspeth, queens…  winter, some time between the years 2000-2002, nighttime.  raver tiff and i decide to go roll on e at dave and beaker’s house one night.  only dave was home at the time, and once that guy started spinning records, he was in his own little world.

tiff and i were in the backyard, sitting on the front steps of the guest house type structure they lived in talking, laughing, rolling.  we were sitting near beaker’s bedroom window and we were tripping so hard we thought these specific looking sticks near his window were chicken feet?  we convinced ourselves he was sacrificing chickens.  for what?  who knows?  it was ridiculous.

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February 1st, 2015 @ 11:48 am

i had taken the day off last friday initially to move, but not all of my friends couldn’t help me that day.  since it didn’t pan out, i moved fully (furniture/everything large) on saturday instead, but i still took the day off to get things prepped to move in on friday night.  my mom took me back and forth twice with the weird odds/ends that didn’t fit into boxes or bags properly, which was super helpful.  at any rate, on friday, the only thing i really had to do besides clean and pack was go to the post office and head over to the new place for the cable installation.  once i got home from the cable installation, i was in the mood for some good cleaning/packing tunes, so of course “i wanna dance with somebody” popped into my head.

while i was watching the video, there was a series of thoughts that i had.

a) her hair is huge and awesome.
b) i seriously belonged in the 80’s as a teenager or adult (as per usual).
c) i wanted almost every dress she had on in the video.
d) i asked my male coworker to memorize and recreate all dance moves the males did in the video.
e) i was talking to my screen and telling whitney she shouldn’t be gone already. it’s such an awful thing that she is no longer with us.  she was so beautiful and talented, and it made me so sad that it gave me goosebumps.

i remember watching that video as a kid and just loving how much fun she looked like she was having.  all of the neon and colours going on is still so inspiring til this day.

that was friday…

i come into work today and i read that her daughter is now in a coma, pretty much on her death bed. 🙁

that is fucking awful.  i hope it wasn’t drug related, that would be so fucking sad… and who’s to blame?  unfortunately, let’s think back to the 90’s…  her substance abusing father had whitney doing all of that shit also.  she gave in and did it as well, but still.  it wasn’t a part of her life until he entered the picture.

her mother died because of drugs, and her daughter couldn’t handle her death.  either depression or drugs could probably be to blame.  that is such a horrible snowball effect because of that man.

maybe i’m wrong… but i doubt it, and that is so terrible.

September 1st, 2013 @ 11:44 pm

unless you live under a rock, you’ve heard about the two ppl that died at electric zoo last weekend, and i’m EYE-ROLLING sick of reading about it.  wait, that may seem horribly disrespectful because they died, BUT i’m talking about the press and their total ignorance about what happened (not the people that died – i think it’s awful that these people died).

anyways, NOT THAT I’M SAYING DRUG USE IS SAFE and/or OKAY for YOU (additionally, i’ve never taken molly, but i have indeedy taken ecstasy many times over the years since i was around 17/18), but my point is that when i was going to raves back in the day, we used dancesafe.org. do the next generation of “EDM” (cringe! @ that term) kids not know about this website?

that website kept us naughty little ravers up to date (with pictures, descriptions, dates, etc.) on batches of pills that were currently circulating at the time, so that we could have a heads up about if there were bad batches going around.  WHICH YES, DID HAPPEN.  i understand that while between checking listed drugs and/or venturing into our own testing kits, that we’re not chemists, and maybe we couldn’t be 100% certain – or maybe even 65% certain – but it was step above going in unaware.

i also had ONE person that i would get my pills from, for years.  they were always safe…
i never popped random pills from strangers at parties.

i don’t know anything about club culture, i never really went to clubs when i was a raver. i went to parties (raves), at venues and warehouses, sometimes they would be at clubs, but it’s not like i was going to anything like pacha every week with the guidos.  i don’t know if they were educated about that site or how they handled their recreational drug use, but i do not know ONE SOUL that died from a drug OD.  my friends candy-flipped, my friends did K and acid, my friends did E and smoked weed…  my friends NEVER did drugs AND drank.  in fact, i can’t remember ONE rave (aside from the ones that i’ve gone to in the last two years), that even served alcohol (which is usually the horrible combo that leads to ER visits, cough).  my friends also weren’t doing those types of drugs combined with prescription pills…  i only know 1 or 2 girls that sometimes took xanax, but they weren’t even doing them at raves, they were doing them on off-nights.

i don’t know what happened to they guy, but it’s been reported that this girl took 6 hits of molly.  SIX HITS.
a) wtf? who does that?!
b) it was like a billion degrees out to begin with, but considering the humidity factor, EW.
and c) she was SURROUNDED by a sea of people.

when i was rolling, the last thing i would EVER want to be was in a crowd of people like that – nor should anyone ever be in extreme heat while on these types of drugs.  your body temperature should stay cool.  for me, being uncomfortable or being overheated would spark anxiety.  once you start feeling like that, and your mind starts going into dark places, the bad trip bug was coming to bite your ass.  AND lastly, has any press even mentioned “water intoxication”?  yes, you can DIE FROM DRINKING TOO MUCH WATER while on ecstasy (i don’t know if it’s the same for molly, but it’s something to keep in mind).

this link says “Although the use of Ecstasy alone can result in serious medical complications, its use in combination with other drugs may exacerbate these dangers. In this report, almost 8 in 10 Ecstasy-related visits to the ED involved Ecstasy in combination with alcohol or other drugs, suggesting that Ecstasy users need to be educated about the dangers of not only Ecstasy but also these drug combinations.”

NOTE IT, KIDS.