August 15th, 2023 @ 1:34 pm
the faster you learn that life doesn’t hand things over to you, and that you have to get off your ass and make the changes you want to be happy, the better off you’ll be.
life is challenging for a lot of us, sitting around and settling is a massive waste of time. being depressed, being angry, not fixing health issues, avoiding bills and other big issues, being friends with shitty people, dating or being married to the wrong person, staying at a job you hate, leaving things on the back burner when it’s hard… just fucking do those things. don’t think about it, just fucking do it. it’s not as hard as you think it is to change your own circumstances.
sometimes those things are scary to do… hard to do… but you have to do them. just deal with it and the issue is gone or at least in motion to change. it’s really just that simple. life is constant change and constant challenges, when all most of us want is stability. the faster you learn that stability is never guaranteed, the better.
i find this shitty little life to be awful, but at least i tackle shit when i need to. if i’m going to make it through this life, i’m at least going to do it on my terms.
i know i constantly say “next year” but this time i fucking mean it. i have to get out of this apartment in general, i have a big decision to make about someone i love, i have to figure out if i’m moving out of NYC or not. i’ve been putting this all off for way too long, and i’m sick of it. i’m sick of feeling stuck, feeling set aside, feeling unlike myself and most of all, unhappy.