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stupid brain
April 8th, 2022 @ 12:08 am
you know how smell is our strongest sense? well my brain HARDCORE associates smells with sickness, stress, people, eras, etc. – it NEVER lets go.
when i caught covid in early 2020, i stopped drinking starbucks altogether, cold turkey. i didn’t lose my sense of taste or smell, but it was so skewed for those two weeks of hell and anxiety. if you knew me IRL, you would know that i had an iced latte/espresso in my hands at least twice a day for nearly 20 years. it seemed insane for me to just up and leave… but it was a bittersweet breakup. better for my wallet, anyway. i started to dabble in it here and there, but i can’t go back to how it was.
when i was last in seattle, i had no keurig in my hotel, so i had to live off of starbucks for a week. it just tastes so different to me now, and man… shit was EXPENSIVE. what a crock! …but i digress.
i just changed my wallflower plugin in my bathroom up here in my room and as soon as i plugged that fucker in, it hit me like a ten ton truck. it brought me right back here. i must have had this one going during november. all day it’s been a horrible reminder, but it’s also one of my favorite B&BW scents (raspberry tangerine). i debated switching it out all day, but i’m trucking on through.
oh, brains.