January 25th, 2022 @ 2:08 pm

i want to live alone
because the greatest love
is always ruined by the bickering
the argument of living

i want to live alone

i could be happy on my own

♥ ♥ ♥

:opens up chipotle container expecting a delicious chicken quesadilla, opens it and finds horribly greasy/flakey quesadilla with some type of charred meat that was super spicy and NOT chicken:  “wtf is this?” – me

:uncovers “dipping” stuff (sour cream/salsa): “here’s the sour cream and stuff” – steve

“that’s not what i’m complaining about, wtf is this meat?” – me

“you’re the worst with food when it comes back wrong.  you’re just like joe, i feel like i’m dating joe.” – steve, with an extremely pissy attitude, right off the bat

“wtf, i’m just saying this food is wrong…” – me

“well you can’t order a replacement (via uber eats, they only refund not exchange the wrong food)” – steve :off in the distance still bitching angrily about how i am *the worst* when food arrives incorrectly:

“did i ask for a replacement?  i’m just asking, when have you ever seen me order or eat a steak quesadilla?  don’t you think there’s a reason for that?” – me, who just really doesn’t want to eat a steak quesadilla (ever)

“never.” – steve

“THAT’S BECAUSE I DON’T LIKE STEAK IN QUESADILLA FORM!” – me

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i hate bickering and fighting with people.  i will admit that i do have OCD about shit in my house (mainly my room and the kitchen), but everyone i know is warned about it.  i don’t just bitch at others for absolutely no reason…  especially stupid little things.

i legit can not believe i just got bitched at and full-on attitude for receiving my fucking lunch wrong.  i am sitting here like wtf just happened?  am i crazy?  i almost feel like texting someone to ask if i am totally in the wrong here.  i mean, sure i could have eaten whatever it was, but i didn’t want to.  i don’t like any other meat from chipotle.  why should i eat something i don’t enjoy?  i feel like if i had asked my friends, they’d just be biased and be like “oh you’re totally in the right”.

i understand this pandemic still has us feeling fatigued, isolated and annoyed, but why take it out on others (if that’s the case)?

it’s a good thing i ordered two meals for dinner yesterday, or i would have had nothing to eat for lunch today…  shit.