March 19th, 2020 @ 7:16 pm

i’ve been trying to feel normal through this stupid coronavirus shit, but my body is so physically anxious.  i can’t sleep comfortably, i’ve had tension headaches every day, i hate working from home, so that isn’t helping matters…  i am getting depressed not doing normal things like seeing coworkers, seeing friends, etc.

my appetite is awful, my starbucks closed so i haven’t been having routine coffee every morning which is REALLY throwing me off…  i am definitely losing weight (which clearly isn’t a bad thing, but this isn’t the way i wanted to do it).

i’m not anxious about the virus itself or anything, just about how it’s affecting my life.  i’m being forced to work from home, and i am so annoyed by it that it’s making me this nutso.

i haven’t wanted to make anything, which is VERY strange.  the most artsy thing i’ve done in days is dye my hair and paint my toenails.  mind you, both times i was dying my hair this week, i had anxiety attacks while doing my hair and i almost fainted and smashed my face into my bathroom sink…  JOY!

i can’t wait for this bullshit to be over.

i’m so annoyed too, because i bought tickets for 4 VERY important shows and i bet you anything the two in may are going to get cancelled.

i fucking hate this shit. i hate however this shit started, i hate president DUMP for mishandling it like every other fucking thing the idiot does… i hate that it’s still taking this long to handle it all.