February 3rd, 2020 @ 5:20 pm

i’ve let go of 4/5 friends over the last decade or so.  i only do this when someone has done something super shitty to me, they’re selfish friends or well, just completely psychotic.  i’m sorry, but i don’t have time for people that are only in it for themselves.  we all have enough shit to deal with on a daily basis, to then have to deal with shitty or fair-weather friends.  that being said, mi amiga bonita sarita tweeted this today, and it couldn’t come at a funnier time:

“if i have to think twice about whether or not i can trust or rely on you, we shouldn’t be cool.”

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i should have trusted my instinct about a week ago when one of those folks came knockin’ at my door.  i figured i’d give it a shot, but apparently this one is just shaaaaaaaaaady? i dunno. maybe it was a drunk add? either way, someone added me, never said anything – iiiiiiiiiiii then reached out and then realized she unfollowed me.

what in the literal fuck was the point?
i gave her the benefit of the doubt even confirming her add, and maybe i’m jumping to conclusions bc she just didn’t respond in a reasonable time frame.  i mean, i wasn’t looking for an essay – just left an icebreaker, but once i realized she unfollowed me, nah.  right out the window.  what a waste of energy.

lesson learned:
if they’re gone, they’re gone for a reason.  leave ’em where you left them.  trust your gut, and def keep ’em as far back as you can – especially when they chill with corny nimrods and losers.  queens is a small fucking galaxy, and unfortunately when you get rid of one, they find the other weeds you cut away.  yuck.

if there’s anything i’ve learned over the years, is that there are so many gross, two-faced, fake shitheads within my friend groups.  some might seem like *oMg sO mUcH fUn* and/or good eggs, but a lot of them have got disgusting insides…  and for some reason, they like to show me those sides, but not others.  so many lessons learned.

you would think nearing 40 that i wouldn’t be dealing with this type of bullshit, but here it is gravitating towards me as usual.  i did nothing to provoke this add, and i honestly don’t understand why people are so fucking odd.

if you’re not going to have an adult conversation with me, just leave me the fuck alone.