October 24th, 2012 @ 2:14 pm
so i found this in my inbox this morning, after one of our out-of-state clients came to visit us yesterday (obv. the first time that i had met one of the women i frequently talk to via email and over the phone):
and i laughed at first but then cringed a little bit…
i cringed, because i instantaneously thought about how they probably formed this image of me in their minds, that lumps me into the same category as that “goth” chick from NCIS that works in the lab (see right).
when i worked at cascarino’s (a small queens-based italian restaurant) for four years, that’s all i’d ever hear – “the goth chick” (from middle aged white dudes that ran the place, so i don’t know why i gave a shit, but still).
a) i have been rockin these bangs since i was 4
b) i don’t wear bondage collars to work (or ever… well, since 2002. even then, they were not spiked nor were they the ones that could connect to a chain or leash, lol)
c) i don’t dress like i’m going to an S&M club on the daily OR like i just fell off the stereotypical hot topic tree
d) i am definitely NOT goth (even if i listen to that type of music, wear a lot of black, own black lipstick and the cure is one of my favorite bands… cough.)
when i was youngin, i had a blue haired babysitter and i guess it stuck with me, i thought she was rad. then having jem dolls, lady lovely locks, etc. – it all fascinated me, lol. plus i’ve been going to punk/ska shows since i was 15/16, it’s the norm… i don’t do it for attention or shock value. that’s stupid.
also: for the record, where tattoos are concerned… i never try to show them off at work or seem like some “type” of a person… it annoys me when everyone does that to me, lol… i’m just lil ol’ me!
i rarely bring them up/talk about them (do you even know how many i have?), i don’t refer to myself as a tattoo’d girl (vom), i never list tattoo’s as something i LOVE (although i do love mine<3, duh), i don't call them "TATS" or "my ink", i'm not largely interested in covering myself, and lastly, i'm not into dudes with tattoos AT ALL (if they’re there, whatever. but i’m def. not going after them as if that fuels my fire or some shit).