September 23rd, 2011 @ 5:37 pm
sooooooooooooo i totally made it through my 30th birthday without crying about it. i know i’ve been making a huge deal about it, sorry. what an annoying broken record i am!
i thought it’d be bad, and my mother told me on her 30th birthday, no one could calm her down and she had to take a valium to finally relax… but i was chill.
the only thing that i had in fact cried about on my birthday, was my aunt necie telling me about how she was the first thing i looked at when i was born. and that i kept looking for my mom while trying to open my eyes for the first time.
she was telling me this while she was crying, which made me cry.
my aunt necie is my mothers older sister, and was like my grandmother while i was growing up… she’s really sick with emphysema and i think that time is running a little short. a lot is catching up with her and my mom says that she’s been trying to give things away and is getting super sentimental lately and stuff…
that breaks my heart. i absolutely love her and it killed me to hear her crying.
sorry for the sad story, just wanted to let ya’s know i was braver than i thought on this birthday… lol.