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May 15th, 2014 @ 2:11 pm
THIS IS THE ONLY THING THAT CURRENTLY MATTERS.
October 14th, 2013 @ 2:05 pm
i walked from my bedroom into the kitchen, the cat needed food. as soon as i got to the kitchen sink, BOOOOOOOOOM! straight to the floor. i was sitting on the floor and i couldn’t stand up, i couldn’t lift my head, i couldn’t even turn my head. i felt like something around me was evil but i couldn’t see. the only thing that i could see was my right arm with the three usual bracelets that i wear. i saw them vividly coloured, and i felt myself flailing, but visually i was not moving. sometimes it would flicker in front of me, like a TV screen. i would see just a split second of what i was doing mechanically, but my arm still sat stationary to where it was between those flickers.
somehow i stood up. i tried to walk backwards, because sometimes in dreams when i can’t move forwards at all, or if i’m going too slowly, i’ll turn around and move at regular speed. that didn’t work this time. i just dragged myself slowly to a mirror in the bathroom. once i got to the mirror and i looked into it, i saw myself but with all japanese characteristics. i got up very closely to look at my cheekbones and eyes. once i got to my eyes, i saw that they were completely bloodshot and gooey. there was some type of red tissue growing over my iris, which i’m guessing was why i was having visual issues(?).
i woke up and instantly saw my bracelets and my arm was positioned the same way that it was through my entire dream.
November 6th, 2012 @ 3:29 pm
on halloween night this year, mike and i did the universal studios halloween horror nights. they had the walking dead maze which i previously posted about, and a silent hill maze. there were other mazes, but we didn’t walk through them… the lines on the mazes had crazy long waits, and the express passes sold out when we were buying our tickets that morning… so we just walked around, watched a live bill & ted show and drank cold beers.
the walking dead maze zombies looked amazing as did the maze itself, and just like the intended sets. there were a crazy amount of people there, so i guess it was tough to have people go in smaller groups. we saw all of the things that were coming up for us before we even got to them, because everyone was kind of being rushed through. one of the zombies in particular looked like others walking around also, almost like leatherface, and it seemed like there was this one repeat zombie almost four different times.
another thing that truly killed it for me were all of the universal studios staff members in the maze. it wasn’t a subtle person here and there, the black polo shirt donned helpers were so obviously perched at so many turns and in so many corners! it honestly took away from the element, killed the scary vibe.
although everything looked AMAZING… all in all, eh. i wasn’t scared or spooked by this one 🙁
the silent hill maze was pretty rad, the fog/ashes falling down while you walked in was sick (and yes, the sirens were going full steam)! it looked just like in the SH movies. there wasn’t too much that scared me other than the entire spooky vibe of silent hill, in general. the only things that really got to me were the creepy bathroom (from the first movie) with that chick wrapped in barbed wire (it looked so real!), the “cops” from the new movie, the pyramid head walking next to me/walking around creepy back alleys (completely dodged him, thank god) and the CREEPY ASS nurses.
the only thing that i think sucked about the SH maze, is that they really OD’d having an army of those creepy ass nurses – why concentrate on just one scary element?
all in all, loved this one.
mike and i were trying to get into this one maze called “dead end” but the line was excruciatingly long and i made mike get off of the line. it was seriously ridiculous, and that’s when we went to the silent hill maze (which we originally turned back from, which had an hour long wait). i wonder how that one would have been. we left soon after, because we had been at the park all day. we were exhausted and sore from the entire day.
October 26th, 2012 @ 1:29 pm
i’m going to florida tomorrow, and the boyfriend and i were in talks about universal and disney this trip… i don’t know how good of an idea this is going to be, seeing as that i had an anxiety attack watching the season finale back in march, but i think this is going to happen.
January 23rd, 2012 @ 5:49 pm
my boyfriend and i got into an amityville horror interest the other day, which led me to googling it this afternoon. i wanted to read the book, based on the happenings when the lutz family lived there (for a measly 28 days), so i looked into it…
back in the 70’s, this guy “butch” defeo killed his entire family – both of his parents and his four siblings. from what i gather, he claims it was his sisters idea and that she helped in the murder but ended up also being murdered – and found in a naturally sleeping position (under the covers and all). he also said that voices told him to kill his family, but there are so many inconsistencies over the years that no one seems to know the real story. he does claim that there were no paranormal things going on growing up.
moving along, the next family that moved in a year later, the lutz’s are the family that claimed all of the paranormal stuff had happened. i never knew that there was a whole controversy about the lutz’s being “liars” and making up the entire story. the family that lived in the house after the lutz family claims there is absolutely nothing paranormally happening, or has ever happened in the house. for me, that takes away from the potential scariness of the book. i think i’m going to read it anyhow, but it boils down to paranormal activity and whether it really exists or not. personally, i’d never want to find out, lol… but if it really does, that’d be crazy if the lutz family did actually have to deal with that.
November 3rd, 2011 @ 4:51 pm
there aren’t many horror movies that actually scare me. my mom raised my sister and i watching horror movies, so not much bothers either of us. but my sister warned me about paranormal activity. she told me not to watch it because she knows what freaks me out and what doesn’t… i listened for quite a while (since the first one was released), but then i obtained a persistent boyfriend that wanted me to watch the third one in the movies with him.
after weeks of him asking, i finally caved, and told him that we needed to watch 1 and 2 at home, first. i must say… i halfway regret it, but i guess it was good because it did scare the shit out of me.
the only horror movies that have really ever affected me were:
a) stephen king’s “it“. i looked at that damn drain every chance that i could while i was in the shower until i was into my early twenties.
b) “the entity” – this entity was attacking her, raping her, and anywhere she went, it followed her 🙁
c) the remake of “the texas chainsaw massacre” – not so much the movie, but that Leatherface scared the shit out of me. i actually had a nightmare about him, and i never have nightmares from horror flicks 🙁
d) “the exorcist“. yeah, while i was watching it, i was laughing the entire time. that night, when i went to bed and tried to fall asleep, i started thinking about how that could happen and it bugged me out 🙁 i couldn’t sleep for an entire weekend. what a sissy, huh?
well, if you too haven’t seen it and know nothing about it, i won’t give any of the story away… BUT, i will only reveal this: paranormal activity is about an unseen, scary, strong, demon turd named toby. it (or he) is fucking with two couples/a few other people (in 1 & 2). even though they knew some freaky shit was going down in their houses, they didn’t know what it was, they couldn’t see it, and they didn’t realize when this thing was actually taking them over. i think that’s what scared the shit out of me so much.
a) you can’t see the damn thing, and it’s super strong and powerful 🙁
b) these people setup cameras so that they could document what was going on in the house. mainly things happened very late at night, around 2-3 in the morning. but sometimes the damn thing did things during the daytime. that scared the shit out of me, like, give them a fucking break for a few hours, lol. i just feel safer during the daytime… i mean, who relates sunlight to demons and spooky/scary shit?
c) sometimes it would make them get up during their sleep, and they ended up standing up and just staring at their loved ones sleeping, for hours. 🙁
d) THE DAMN THING DUN FUCKED WITH A DOG. like, you know shit is evil when it’s fucking with an animal 🙁
i haven’t had any nightmares about it (yet, thankfully), but every time i take a damn shower i’m all “FUCK I GOTTA MAKE THIS A QUICK ONE BEFORE SOMETHING KILLS ME OR THE CAT”, and i keep waking up in the middle of the night looking around in the dark and freaking myself out. every little noise, every shadow moving, THE DAMN CAT WALKING ON THE BED, the heat making the pipes make sounds… it’s got me all fucked up.
so i dunno, if shit like that scares you, i suggest not watching it. i probably wouldn’t have, had i known all the shit that went down in these damn things 🙁
October 5th, 2011 @ 3:30 am
walks, lol’ing with lauren, rangers preseason games, cleaning like crazy, breaking bad, sleepovers/dates with my michael james<3, the golden girls, friday’s, crazy nails, crafting, ricotta cheese, listening to miami horror/taking back sunday and the suicide machines, trying to find work.
september was awesome… october seriously needs to wake the fuck up and be just as awesome, and more.
since i’ve been freelancing for edit and no longer work there full time, i’ve been sleeping in every day until 11am. this is seriously making me a bum. i’m up until 3/4 am most nights, and that isn’t good… on the weekends, mike and i aren’t up that late, so i don’t know why my body is in so out of whack…
work has been super slow lately and it reminds me of why i don’t like freelancing… i haven’t struggled financially in ages, and now i’m budgeting… i feel personally embarrassed, and i end up getting super pissed off at the fact that i could never save a great deal of money over the years. helping my mother really killed me in the long run, but instead of bitching and pointing fingers, i’m just on the job hunt. (in case randolph and i don’t in fact launch our company…)
i interviewed with a spot the other day and it made me realize a lot of things. a lot about how to answer questions (even trick questions – who does that?) on interviews, how to be confident, that i need to sharpen SOME of my skills (but not all of them, mr. “i run a media company, but my website doesn’t even work in IE”… cough.) even if by some miracle i got called back for that job, i wouldn’t have wanted it… but it was a lesson learned and i got something out of it.
tomorrow jes and our friend missy are taking me out for a birthday dinner, but before that i’ll be meeting up with randolph to discuss starting our company already… i’d much rather work for myself and for him than a whole new gig…
September 18th, 2011 @ 11:18 pm
so i have one hour of my twenties left… i’m watching twin peaks and eating donuts by myself.
my boyfriend is in DC on business and my cat is sleeping. all i have is twin peaks, and the hunt for laura palmer’s killer.
oh, and the donuts.
bye bye twenties…
i think it’s hard to let go of this decade because it’s so full of youth… moving forward there’s only room to grow for another decade and then you just go downhill. that shit scares me.
in the last decade, so much shit has happened to me. good and bad. but it’s shaped me more than i thought my teen years had/and or ever could.
good and horrible friends, raves and shows, meeting my father/brother/grandmother, working at west coast and cascarino’s where i met some of my best friends that i still keep til this day, my longest relationships (that i’ll always love, even if we don’t talk anymore…), my stupidest love mistakes, moving out, finding most of my favorite bands, the best upstate times, tattoos and piercings, finding my digital creative niche and career, working in dumbo, mets and ranger games, crazy bell blvd nights, become closer with my sister, shows shows shows, vacations without family, being responsible for myself, etc…
mainly it was just becoming an adult, now i just feel like i have to be one, no exceptions…
i also think that i have this expectation set for myself that i was supposed to be financially set, married, maybe with a kid by now and i’m not.
i’m definitely not ready for that (and i haven’t wanted that anyhow), but it still lingers…
in happy birthday news, my sister and best friend planned a great party for me at my favorite bar, and a shit ton of my friends rolled through and took up the entire front of the bar… it was so great to have everyone there… i felt kind of bad that i didn’t get a lot of one on one time with many people, but i still tried to make my rounds.
i had my friend laura there and i hadn’t seen her since my birthday party that i had when i was living in midwood. she’s so amazing… she wrote the sweetest thing on my birthday sign and it made me miss her a lot. we always just pick up where we left off and all we do is laugh, she’s great. she told me that i was amazing and that she thinks of me all the time even though we aren’t hanging out together… i’m glad that i fully appreciated every shift i had with that girl at cascarino’s (in both stores), it was our designated hangout time, lol.
mike finally got to meet different friends of mine, and he even met steve. which i was getting a little freaked out about because steve is my ex and he never likes being around my current boyfriends 🙁 which is totally understandable but we’re still good friends, so i wanted him there.
mike got me tickets to see danzig (and doyle PERFORMING MISFITS SONGS) for my bday and opening day tickets for the rangers! (and another game against the isles) – but i am super super psyched about opening day. i know i’m gonna be crying so hard if they have anything for boogey
i had a great time around great people.<3 thanks guys