i have always been a creative little monster. since i was a young stu, i’ve always enjoyed making things. whether it be drawing, photoshop, coloring, jewelry, crafts, collaging, etc. it was always something. as i grew into adulthood, it was the same thing. as a teenager, i went from mario paint to photoshop, and from photoshop to coding HTML and CSS. from cutting up clothing to sewing it together in different ways, using iron on letters to customize shirts (thanks to my old friend ellen), to modifying hairbows and jewelry. currently, i’m creating websites, t-shirts and earrings on the regular. as much as i love doing it, time is of the essence, and it’s really starting to hit me that it needs to pay off or i have to put my efforts elsewhere.
my day (like billions of other people’s) consists of 2 hours commuting back and forth and 8 hours of work. i am so tired by the time that i get home, that i don’t want to do anything, let alone craft. between having to clean my apartment that is now 4x larger than i was used to, to taking care of kitty and giving him adequate attention, hanging out with boyfriend and my handful of friends and/or keeping up with all of my orders that come through, i don’t have time to even market what i do. i don’t know how people do it, honestly… maybe it’s because i’m now entering my 30’s (which yes, actually does make a difference compared to my 20’s), but that sounds like a cop out.
i’d love to be that “grinding” person, but i’m just not one of those people that are like “there are 24 usable hours in a day” (– corey, empire records), i’m more like “there are only 24 hours in a day”. as i said before, i spend 2 of them commuting and 8 of them working. that leaves me with 14 usable hours, and i need 7 of those (at least 7) for sleeping, which then leaves me with 7. 7 hours to do whatever i can leisurely and oriented towards my hobbies/creative ventures… that’s just ridiculous.
i guess i need to micro-manage my hours… an hour or even a half an hour a day might make the difference, but to find time to be that consistent even 3 days a week doesn’t seem all that possible. not only that, i have zero patience for social media.
i think the thing that is most frustrating about this situation sometimes, is that i have a bunch of people that are well established, that could push my goods here and there, that don’t. i know that one should never assume or expect that people should do things in return for others, but if i have been a good friend and supported/pushed your product, it’d be nice to have some support in return. it takes a second to link someone via tweet, website, pinterest, etc.
i’m never going to ask people to do that type of stuff, and they’d never have to ask me to.
– a perplexed lady with great/creative ideas, that needs a fucking break/hand.
(wahhhhh! fuck it, i’m not afraid to admit it…)