September 25th, 2013 @ 8:35 pm
i have always had a love/hate relationship with gwen stefani. most of the time, it’s just like WTF IS WRONG WITH HER, vs. hate. i shouldn’t even say hate (okay okay, the hate is mostly trivial BS things vs. her… hate meaning, eyeroll inducing things such as: the girl can’t dance — i wish she’d stop moving awkwardly, why are is she ever dressing like a chola?, stop being vain and having low self esteem, why are you still with gavin?, why are you not with tony?, what is with those stupid little buns all over your head?), hate is a strong word.
what right do i even have to judge or form an opinion? she’s a celebrity, so i guess fans can’t really help it. i think it’s more just as a fan since the 90’s, collecting all of these albums/songs as stories, and having this person that you make up in your head. the person that i have molded for her is like… she’s awesome, fun, cute, confident, stylish, talented, colourful, and all of that inspires me fully via great vibes. then whilst listening to her songs, everything i adore about her just gets pushed aside because of her ridiculous seemingly self-destructive self-esteem issues?
my biggest thing with her, is wondering if her life is really like her music/interviews/what we all perceive. i have always thought all of these songs are a map of truth, because she is such a wears-her-heart-on-her-sleeve type of musical chick, and because she’s always maintained as such. if that’s true, when i listen to half of the things she writes, i’m often like: this bitch is craaaaaaaaaaazy. like, the type of crazy that gives me the reason to not want to ever date girls again. it’s like gwen, why are you letting yourself be a weak doormat? for “love”? just to make a relationship “survive”?
i’m the type of person that has ZERO patience when it comes time to (bad) relationships. if things are getting all fucked up, bad and weird, it’s probably best to not be in them. BS issues are red flags, people!!! i’m also the type of person that thinks people shouldn’t have to FIGHT or work on relationships to be in them. i get turned off 100% when there’s BS drama going on, i am not attracted to people that bring on/have issues, nor do i have the patience to deal with it.
this morning on my iphone shuffle to work, early winter came on. the entire time, i’m just like ಠ_ಠ ?????
again, the impression that i get is “why on earth does this woman have no self esteem”?
i guess that song is about when she found out he had a daughter and/or possibly finding out about the dude he was with for years. she went on to say that finding out about daisy lowe almost broke up their marriage, but then had a kid a year later? i don’t get it.
4 in the morning is another good example of the same time period. although she denies it’s about gavin… it’s like, come on. who the hell else would it be about? she doesn’t seem like the type that writes fictional songs that aren’t current events in her life. we aren’t fooled mrs. rossdale…
the reason why i really wrote this post, is because in the same gwen/NxD shuffle, 3/4 songs later the song “gravity” came on. the song is praising her relationship with gavin. lyrics that struck me from that song: “‘so many close calls” and “’cause everybody falls”. i just thought to myself, going from early winter to that made me think homegirl is NUTS… and about how no, not everyone falls. some people realize they shouldn’t ignore MASSIVE red flags, and that relationships shouldn’t be on auto-pilot.
within all these years, she “kinda always knowing she’d up his ex-girlfriend” (HELLO, the red flags from wayyy back when — she could have avoided all the BS, let downs, heartbreak, bad situations, etc.), yet she still stayed with him. she wrote songs whining about how horrible he is/was and then had 2 children with him. so either she’s a totally weak woman with self-esteem issues, or a simply a lying genius/songwriting liar...
i guess only time will tell…